Saturday, May 20, 2017

Rediscovering Kinks - CFNM and Dirty Talking

Thursday, I greeted Suzy at the door fully nude.  We began kissing and I quickly got hard.  Just getting an erection feels great.  As I've gotten older, my spontaneous erections have gone way down. Gone are the teenage days when a bikini ad tented up my pants.  There's "morning wood" but it's just not the same when I'm not fully conscious and Suzy isn't a participant in my hardon.  

And by "participate" I really mean that she feels, sees, comments.  I really do think that a male getting a hardon for a woman is the ultimate compliment he can give her - after all, he has no control over it.  She always feels her lover's erection, but seeing, observing, commenting is a big fetish of mine, the CFNM fetish.

As we were standing there, my wife felt my erection and "checked me out", saying, "your balls are really tight".  There are certain trigger words that she says that excite me: cock, balls, cuckold, orgasm, come, my lover(s).  When we were first married she would give me handjobs in a more sitting position (now, she usually rests with her head on my chest, then scoots over to avoid my load).  She would say in a sexy voice something like , "oh, your balls are getting tight, looks like you're about to come".  I had no idea that my balls contracted as I approached orgasm.  And in some ways, it seemed like it became a conditioned response, that she knew before me when I was going to blow my load, and announcing the movement of my testes seemed to push me over the edge.  Anyway, this type of dirty talk makes me feel that she "knows" me sexually.

This dead giveaway was one reason why Suzy was so good at ruining my orgasm, when that was something we enjoyed doing.  She would sit up and observe my arousal progressing, and my body just highlighted when I was going to come, and she could time removing the stimulation.  This makes me feel like I'm an animal to be observed and controlled.

And, I have had some pretty fantastic CFNM handjob/breast sex orgasms.  I can think of a fantastic session we had when we visited the place we used to live; we found ourselves alone in a hotel room but she was on her period.  She was wearing jeans and a t shirt; I was horny, it was during the day and she said "I'll take care of you".  I got fully undressed and she positioned herself between my legs and stroked me until I came.  So hot!  And the time when she told me to wear a condom for titty sex.  I got so turned on with her pressing her D-cups against each other to increase the stimulation of my cock, and she just watched me pump away - later telling me she thought it was "sexy" watching me fill the condom with semen.

In CFNM kink play, I do prefer her to be in sexy/revealing clothes.  Jog bra and yoga pants - yes!  Catwoman outfit - please!  Naughty Santa's Helper!  Her PJs do have pretty good cleavage views!  

I really like sex with the lights on.  I like to be watched.  I am a CFNM fan and I'm horny.

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We ended this session with the Hitachi over her clit, and her firmly holding my cock and balls (she actually did use both hands).  We both enjoy the risk in her squeezing very hard on me as she comes.  And I did continue the rush of being fully nude while she had her full PJ outfit on.  She came VERY hard, and basically just passed out asleep, sexually content.

Monday, May 15, 2017

Cuckolding experiment over (?)

Anyone reading my past few posts may have seen that Suzy made a rare appearance in response to a reader comment about her blog.  She was pretty clear in her response that she deleted her blog and that our foray into the world of cuckolding is over.

If you recall, Suzy had settled on one longterm play partner, and she was feeling comfortable enough with him to envision a cuckolding fantasy where I would watch them have intercourse (round 1) and then I would reclaim her (round 2) while he was in his refractory period, followed by a second coupling with him (round 3).  She would then dismiss me and they would have their first "sleepover".  That was her fantasy, and it seemed like it would happen since all parties were on board with it.  But alas, it never happened.

Suzy mentioned several reasons for it and while I have a solid idea on a lot of them, I won't go into all of them.  Suffice it to say, a big reason is that her playmates were unreliable.  We gave the cuckolding lifestyle the college try and we found that just as it was ego-boosting for her to be sexually sought after by other men, it was equally ego-bruising to have flaky playmates - especially when "Friend #6" seemed to be the long-term "boyfriend" that she wanted.

It turns out Suzy had a good opportunity to reconnect with "Friend #6" but he flaked out again and Suzy wasn't buying his excuses.  Such is life, but I will say this seems to be a common problem for cuckold couples.

My feelings on this?  Well, I must reiterate our cuckolding rules from the very beginning: that we both have veto power.  She has vetoed this lifestyle, and I respect that choice.

Secondly, no regrets on my part.  A surprising thing about this cuckold experiment is that I never developed feelings of jealousy.  When she had a playdate - especially with a new guy - I did feel "cuckold angst" but that was mainly around her safety and wanting her to have a good time.  And a strong desire to hear about what they did, and to reclaim her.  I did have some angst about all the sexting she'd do, but when I understood that the pursuing, the flirting was a big part of what appealed to her, I become OK with it.  I gotta be honest here, knowing my wife has caused other men to be sexually excited, to get hard and to ejaculate never got old.  Even married men uninterested in hotwifing would be proud to know that their wife turns other men on!  I happen to have proof!

Thirdly, I'm grateful for her for trying, for indulging in my kinks, and for doing this "for me" (LOL?).  I'm proud of her.

Lastly, in my minds eye, my kink around her cuckolding me need not go away entirely:
  • Her "hall pass" is still valid (e.g., I have not vetoed her having sex with other men).  If she randomly sees a guy that she wants to play with, she has my permission - whether that be the local cougar lounge, a swinger event, or one of her prior playmates.  I still DO need to hear about it, that has not changed.  
  • I would prefer to not sweep this under the rug.  We both enjoyed this experiment (perhaps me more than her?) and if nothing else, would enjoy being reminded of her escapades from time to time (not going to lie, when I am going down on her, the fact that she has had six other cocks enter where I'm licking definitely does cross my mind!)  
  • To be clear, I'm not pressuring her in any way, I'm just saying that I'm essentially reverting back to being a wannabe cuckold again, which can offer a plethora of opportunities for sexy teasing and dirty talk.  I'd welcome her talking to me about her thoughts of uncircumcised cocks, what it was like to be in bed with younger studs that were turned on by her MILF-ness, teasing me that she's had more sex partners, comparing her lovers' attributes, etc.  There are of course lots of opportunities for cuckold role playing, and I'm game for that.  I hope she's ok with that, instead of quitting "cold turkey".  
  • And - perhaps at this point stating the obvious - if our life circumstances change (e.g., when we become empty nesters) - it may make sense for us to revisit this as a couple.  Maybe she just needs to find the right lover...

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Wife initiated sex is the best sex; a tale of multiple fetishes in a married early morning encounter

Just wanted to jot down a quick note about a sexy encounter we had a few nights ago.  If you recall, Suzy had a bit of a fetish about waking me up for sex.  This is obviously a big turnon for me, making me feel like I am her personal sex slave.  Very hot when she does that.  Well, a few nights ago, I was going on a business trip and had taken my sleeping pills since I had to wake up at a ridiculous hour.  I was sound asleep.  Wife waking hubby up for sex fetish - check!

I started waking up to the feeling of heavy petting on my cock outside my shorts.  Reminded me of our dating days, actually.  Lots of manual foreplay on my cock, before she allowed intercourse.  Anyway, I got really hard and it was feeling great.  It had been a long time since we'd played and since I had a solid, pleasurable erection.  Dopamine was flooding my brain.  Hubby feeling like a sex slave fetish - check!

She then reached into my shorts and began with manual skin on skin contact.  OMG wife initiated sex is just the best.  Wife in charge of sex fetish - check!

Did not know what she had in mind.  But I love her being in charge, setting the pace.  She said something like, "I want you inside me" (I was still have asleep, but rock hard).  She then said, "but I want you to wear a condom".  So there I was, having had a delicious amount of foreplay and a great erection, I think I asked her if she wanted to come first, she said no, so I undressed and walked over to get a condom, pulled her PJ bottoms off, unrolled the condom over my married-and-shooting-blanks cock.  Again, the thought of reverting to "boyfriend sex" with a condom went through my mind.  Wife dicktating [sic] how I fuck her (with a condom) fetish - check!  

I slid right in and we kissed a bit, I played with breasts some, even though she still had her top on.  I got turned on by the vulnerability of me being fully nude but teased by not experiencing her whole sexy chest (big breasts, hard nipples, swaying during the sexual rhythm, etc).  Clothed female, naked male fetish - check!

I knew I wasn't really going to last that long.  She was groping my body, kissing, and the sexual connection was feeling great.  I don't exactly know what she did next, it wasn't exactly an ass-spanking, kinda more of a playful slapping, something she hadn't done in a while, but we both knew it was turning me on and then I shot my load into the condom.  Wife being rough with submissive hubby fetish - check!

I then cleaned myself up and she got the vibrator out and finished herself off.  I vaguely remember playing with the skin just outside her vulva as she buckled her hips and came.  Female orgasm fetish - check!

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By the way, I did make my plane flight.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Questions 49 - 63

49: How do you feel about tattoos on someone you are interested in?

Interesting question.  Suzy seems determined to get a tattoo as a bonding experience with a child.  She's never really said what she would get, and when I joked about something like I love my husband she dismissed it entirely, which kinda hurt my feelings.  I assume that she will eventually, and I don't think she really knows what she wants.  But, would I be excited by some design that's in an area for me only, like on her ass, near her pussy, or on her breasts?  Sure, but I'm a little freaked out by the permanency of it all, and tats usually don't look so good decades later.
50: How would you feel about taking someones virginity?

Did that once, never again...
51: Is there any food you would NOT recommend using during a sexual encounter?

Gross question, don't want to answer...
52: Would you rather be a pornstar or a prostitute?

Don't think this applies to me...  
53: Do you watch porn?

On occasion.  I have written a few posts about this, a replacement of our "Desperate Housewives" sex ritual, which I think we both enjoyed.  Plus, I think I've suggested to her before that, given her affinity for male strippers, we try this porn parody of Magic Mike.   
54: Have you ever been called a freak? Why?

Well, I think the term used is pervert, and several times; I kinda like the idea that my wife is OK with me having unusual kinky fetishes, some of which she enjoys too.  LOL.
55: Do you feel comfortable going “commando”?

Not really.  On days when it's very likely that we will have sex, it's fun to wear thongs.  Suzy and I differ on the "expectations" side of things.  When I feel that there is a 90% probability of sex, I really do enjoy having that expectation.  It's fun to be wearing something sexy that serves as a constant reminder of our marital playtime to come.  But no, not really that into no underwear at all.
56: Would you have a problem with going down on someone if they hadn’t shaved their pubic hair?

Yes.  I can recall a few times when I was going down on her and some of her pubes went up my nose.  Not a pleasant feeling.  I do feel that I am somewhat obsessed with pubic hair.  When she tells me she's shaved (or, if I "find out" by doing some intimate research), I'm pretty excited about it and usually go straight for cunnilingus.  See "expectations" above.  I wouldn't mind if she shifted her pubic hairstyle every now and then: I do think a landing strip is extremely sexy, but the hair needs to be well away from my nose, and I do strongly prefer her labia to be shaved.  But pubic hairstyles have a big advantage over tattoos, that they are not permanent.  As an aside, I trim my own probably about once a month.  I don't like the "natural" look at all, on myself or Suzy.  
57: If you could give yourself head, would you?

Kinda weird.  I suppose if it was for Suzy's entertainment, if she "made" me, I would.  But I'm pretty sure I can't, LOL.
58: Booty or Boobs?

Feel like this was addressed in an earlier question.  Best answer I can give is physical attraction I'm an ass-man, but during sex play, I'm more of a breast man.  I just love the reactions I get from her during foreplay when I'm playing with her breasts.  And don't forget, when I've warmed her up enough to suck her nipples, it's like a direct nerve line to her clit - sometimes she demands that I penetrate her or otherwise make her come, which is hot.  Have I said that I like it when she's sexually assertive?
With her ass, it's like a long term admiration thing.  She's got a sexy ass, and it's not just me that thinks so.  Suzy doesn't really seem all that open to playing with her ass during sex.  Don't think she likes to be spanked, and she doesn't seem to enjoy anal ticking like I do.  I'm sure I do grab it during sex, but she doesn't react to it the way she does with her breasts.  And a lot of times I get into trouble when I grab her ass during non-sexual situations, which she really doesn't like.  But I can't help myself!
But I sort of object to the premise of the question - implying it is one or the other.  Just a part of her sexy package of "assets".
59: Have you ever cheated on someone? (Why?)

Nope.  
60: If you were the other sex for a day, what are five things you would do?

Let's just say I would fully take advantage of the multi-orgasmic functionality of the female sex.  I'd probably come dozens of times.  I'd probably wear something extremely provocative and watch men drool over me.  I'd definitely do a MFM threesome and be ravished with two hungry cocks, four horny hands, and two mouths feverishly attacking me.  I'd get picked up in a bar, and make a male buy me drinks and stuff.  Is that enough?  But, the multiple orgasms.  That's what I'd do...
61: Have you ever watched someone masturbate?

Kinda.  Suzy's not much of a masturbator, frankly.  But she has done some pretty hot things with the Hitachi.  One time, she tied me up with my hands up in the air and made me watch her coming with the Hitachi.  And a few times, she laid her body on top of mine so that I can "feel" the convulsions from her body as she climaxed.  That was very hot too.  
62: Has anyone ever watched you masturbate?

Honestly, I can only think of one time when Suzy watched me masturbate.  It was in the basement of our old house, and we were playing something on the kinky side.  It might have been the "catwoman" night, I'm not sure.  I may be missing some details here, but I think Suzy had already had her orgasm(s) and she then said something along the lines of, "I want to watch you finish yourself off".  I believe I was sitting or something and I stroked myself while she was watching.  I liked how assertive she was (should not be a surprise to anyone here) and I'll be honest with you, it was kinda hot to "perform" for her.  Something I'd like to do again, frankly.  Maybe with her taking pictures or video of it.  I love to feel "watched".  But TBH, my orgasms are 10x more powerful when she gives me a handjob.  I do have some interesting masturbation fantasies involving her watching...
63. Have you ever had an erection and someone noticed?

Not that I can recall as an adult.  We've had some circumstances that we've been in a restaurant talking about sex or cuckolding and I've gotten hard, and simply told her that I can't stand up right now, which I think she found amusing.  Might have had some times when I didn't have the table as a boner blockade and she mentioned something about sex or cuckolding and I got visibly hard in public.  I'm sure it happened as a teenager, but at that time, I got hard just about anytime I saw anything remotely sexual.