Monday, May 30, 2016

Lost Mojo?

For the past few weeks, I have uncharacteristically had an almost non-existent sex drive.  In spite of some inevitable middle age health issues (fewer and lower quality erections, "procedures"), I haven't lost much libido compared to my horny teenage years.  Call it "life getting in the way".  Well, and Suzy has herself had a lot of stressful events.  It's just been a crappy few months.  I am confident it will get better.

Meanwhile, I wanted to use the long weekend as a way to get my mind of those things, to enjoy and not stress.  On Saturday night - seemingly the first time in a while - we had a quality cuddle.  We had some pillow talk about how un-horny I was, and Suzy (jokingly?) said that it's been a relief that I haven't been after her, sexually.  She made it clear that she didn't want to play, but we CUDDLED all night and I groped her body.  This usually does increase my desire for her, and as I was half-waking up on Sunday morning, hands all over her, I envisioned the fact that other more virile men have enjoyed my wife's body.  I still get a rush in knowing that there are a few other men that have or are trying to enjoy my wife's sexuality.  My desire for her shot up quite a bit.  Plus, I had also been reflecting on our photo shoot that I discussed in my last post.

By that time I was super horny, my "mojo" back, and wanted her.  She gave me a rundown on where things stand with her, some banter as to how she "liked" me in my lost mojo state, and then had a heavy insinuation that she would "take a long shower", our euphemism for a shower-head induced solo female orgasm.  I wish she understood how hot I think female masturbation is, from my perspective.  It's a matter of perspective: the thought of me jerking off is disturbing to her, but the thought of her climaxing solo is very arousing to me... the whole "my wife NEEDS to come" thing.

So, we had a bit more info exchange and then we played VERY late last night.  Too late.  Naked, I got on top of her and darn near rubbed myself to a climax while I was giving her foreplay (sorry about all that pre-come on your PJ's hon!).  She had an intense Hitachi orgasm - it was very exciting for me to watch her experience that level of pleasure.  She treated me to a nice teasing session with nipple pinching, cock stroking, and ball torture, and I came very close to orgasm, but she backed off.  Orgasm denied.  At that point, I was super tired and crashed with her naked with the knowledge that my wife came twice within a 24 hour period.

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As I have said before, I get a bit depressed if I don't have a solid erection for a few days.  Suzy's tease and denial session have lifted my spirits up a bit.  I do have some pretty good cravings for some kinky sex play, and I am not sure where Suzy stands with this.  She implied last night that I was "topping from the bottom" (giving her too many "suggestions") but I am struggling to communicate my most current fantasies (many of which we've acted on several times, but not for a while) with some newer ones (again, most of which she knows about) - in light of Suzy wanting me to be more dominant or less submissive.  Maybe Suzy would be willing to try try this?

Thursday, May 19, 2016

CFNM Nirvana - sexy photos of a hotwife

Suzy has been sending some sexy selfies to her potential playmates, sometimes while I am asleep and then after the fact she tells me about it, and shows me what she sent.  I usually ask, "what was his reaction", and its usually something positive, and they send back sexy photos of them.  This is pretty far outside her comfort zone, which was sorta solidified when we saw this movie in the theater.  So, she's changed her position on that.  Well, she and I had talked about me being the photographer so that she can have "better shots" than she can do alone with selfies.

We finally had our photoshoot a few days ago.  I helped retrieve some of her sexier undergarments/accessories and she sorted through what thong and bra she wanted.  I felt it was only right for me to be fully nude, to make her feel more comfortable.  So even though she was very exposed, I was still more exposed.

What a session!  I was in CFNM nirvana.  Here's what got me going:

  • Me composing a shot, sometimes getting on the floor, just trying to maximize the sexiness.
  • The degree to which we partnered in this effort, she and I both suggesting different angles/poses.
  • At least for me, the lack of shame around a married couple being comfortable with nudity sexiness even though we weren't initially directly engaging in sex.
  • The fact that the photos were intended for "her lovers", and after the shoot was done, she cropped and sent the ones she liked and deleted everything on my phone.  So no, I don't have a copy to share.
  • My personal favorite photo was one including my own erection at the entrance to her pussy.  I would love to have more photos of my own body as well.  Unfortunately, given the intended audience for the photos, I think that one was deleted.
  • After we were done and getting ready for bed, she allowed me to enter her, with a condom.  So hot for her to watch me roll the condom on.
  • As she was readying herself for penetration, she nonchalantly put on a sexy black camisole.  What a rush!  She had just taken several topless photos for her lovers, but for sex with me, she covers up.  I have no idea if she did this to satisfy my CFNM fetish, or she was just cold.  But it was so hot, me still being fully nude.  I believe she had on her stockings.
  • All told, I was fully nude for maybe like an hour?  My cock had varying stages of hardness, but clearly I was at least partially erect the whole time.  It feels so good to be so open and exposed, LIGHTS ON, for such an extended period of time.  What a foreplay session!  It was one of the few sessions we've had where I came before her.

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Suzy has a planned "playdate" tonight.  I can't wait how it unfolds.  As luck would have it, this playmate is open to taking sexy photos of their play time, so it is possible that I will get a snapchat or a text from her at some point... mind is reeling as to what sexy shots I will get!

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Her Post Orgasmic Glow & Sexual Role Playing

Our sexy time has been hit hard, for various reasons.  Life getting in the way, as they say.

I'm not sure if I've blogged about this, but one thing I've been struggling with is the dominance/submissive thing in the bedroom.  Suzy has given me feedback that she likes her male partner to take charge, to be more assertive.  I typically ask her if she wants me to do a particular sex act.  I'll say something like, "Suzy, I'd like to go down on you, is that OK?".  The feedback she's giving me is that she would really just prefer that I go for it.  So, I've been trying to do that more.

Except when she resists.  Ugh.  As an example for this week, I wanted her to come, and using the Hitachi is the only option at the moment.  She resisted this pretty hard a couple of nights this week.  Last night I was determined and she paradoxically refused again.  But I kept at it, I was persistent.  I needed her to come.  She was very tired but gave up resisting me and allowed me to hold the Hitachi against her beautiful pussy.  She came hard.  We both loved it.  But what was particularly exciting to me was how sensitive her body was post-orgasm.  I was touching her all over and she gave me the best reactions to the stimulation.  I played with her breasts, armpits, back, side, neck, shoulder.  She was writhing in pleasure and then fell into a peaceful sleep.

This morning, she told me matter of factly that it was one of the most intense orgasms she's had.

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A few days before, I had been getting a pain in my scrotum.  It festered for a bit, so I asked her to take a look at it (it's difficult for me to see what's going on down there, so I needed an expert opinion).  She even suggested that we could "play doctor".  I've wanted to role play more, so I thought this would be fairly exciting.  She was tired, so it wasn't a full-blown session.  But she did come out and examine my balls.  I was fully naked and she was in her typical PJ's.  I held my cell phone light in that area, and she carefully examined me.  Such a turnon!!  This was one of the sessions that she refused an orgasm, but she did play with me, and I was in deep sub-space arranging my nude body so that she could stimulate my various erogenous parts.  No orgasm, but a hot experience.  I'd really like to explore more role playing, especially of the CFNM variety.  Perhaps a more drawn out version of doctor/patient in which she examines and discusses my sex life, asks me how often I ejaculate and how often my wife orgasms, basically getting very personal, but as it turns out, she is a doctor that only sees male patients and encourages sex for the wife's pleasure.  We shall see!

Last week, I had done a hasty shave job and I think it was a razor burn.  I don't usually take a lot of time on my scrotum hair, but I did use a razor in the shower and I must have been a little too eager.  What surprised me was that it was a few days after that I felt the pain.  things are getting better now.