Sunday, February 28, 2016

Hubby Denied All Day

We had a very lazy day Saturday.  Didn't really get going until the afternoon, although I did make my Queen breakfast in bed.  I love serving my Queen, trying to figure ways to be loving towards her.  I don't always eat with her, but while she was eating breakfast in bed, I wrote my prior blog post.

We had a lot of communication around our sex life.  I feel that we are really connecting as to what pleases us.  We had an engagement - just the two of us - yesterday evening that involved a 1.5 hour drive.  As I was driving, Suzy started stroking my genitals in no time I got fully erect.  She then undid my pants (making a point of telling me how I still can't undo her bra with one hand) and stimulated me with skin-to-skin contact.  It felt great.  She's occasionally stimulate my balls.  I was a hot, horny mess.

After the event, we got home really late.  She came out and I began giving her foreplay.  She turned on her back and said, "are you going to penetrate me now"?  So, she got up in doggy position and I entered her.  She was fairly wet already.  She told me to slow down, I was pumping too fast.  I get so turned on when she TELLS me how to fuck her.  She also told me not to come.  So, I did as I was told and she was enjoying it.  As we had discussed, the downside of doggy is no face to face.  I really do love holding on to her hips though.  Anyway, I was getting close to orgasm (remember, I had been teased for probably 30-40 min earlier in the day), so we changed to missionary.  It was great to kiss her during the penetration, but she reiterated that I was not allowed to come.  I then pulled out and began applying our new toy to my wife's wet and eager pussy.

That was a case of trial and error: getting it insider her comfortably and then realizing that the speed could be increased.  She finally came.

I tried to get back inside her, and she said, "you had your chance".  Which isn't exactly true, because she had told me NOT to come.  But basically, she did not allow me back inside her and she was clear that I was not going to orgasm, that I had to wait.  She had worn thongs during the day, and told me that she wanted to wear "regular" panties to bed.  So I got those out, and put them on, and her PJ bottoms again.  I was rubbing on her the whole time, maintaining my erection, which I think we both enjoyed.  Then she said, OK, it's time for bed.  I cuddled her to sleep, then took some sleeping pills (I was way too excited) and phoned for a bit until they took effect.  Finally, I got to bed, my now flaccid cock coated with her pussy juices, but remaining horny and wanting.

It was a fun day.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

Exploring Female Sexuality

Suzy and I were playing this week and she said, "Didn't you just orgasm, husband?  I don't think it's time for you to come yet."  That kind of clarity is something that I appreciate as a submissive.  While I think she likes the idea of using my cock to enhance her pleasure, I don't think that I would have the stamina to avoid an orgasm, so there was an unspoken realization that I would not penetrate her with my cock.  It has been a long time since I've performed oral on her - and in spite of her control of my orgasms, she seems to like the idea of her sex partners being more "dominant" (more on this in another post).  Plus, I've read articles that discuss that a woman's probability of climax increases with the number of positions (while that was specifically talking about penetrative sex, it seems reasonable to me that could be applied to cunnilingus as well).

So, I wanted her to start the session with her on her knees and me underneath her, with the idea that we would switch to the classic woman on her back, husband between her legs.  She didn't like the idea at all.  Maybe next time.

I asked her if I could use a dildo on her.  I've used it on her before, but she seems a little skittish about penetration with non-human objects.  It is the feeldoe strapon that I bought years ago with the idea of her "pegging" me.  Anyway, it's a pretty large phallus, - much bigger than me - and she was a little concerned that I would hurt her.  I lubed it up and slowly entered her.  When I've used in the past, it turned me on a lot to watch her labia stretching to accommodate the thrusts.  In this case, the lights were very dim and I didn't see that, but she did have a fantastic orgasm.  Her pussy seemed to close up during her orgasm - what's that about?  She didn't talk much about it specifically, only that it was a great orgasm.  I wonder what she's thinking....

Well, there was a giant wet spot on the bed.  I think it was because of all the KY lube I used.  It is a huge turnon for me when I am denied to "clean up" after sex.  My Queen was only nude from the waist down and had even covered up her chest with the comforter.  I got my CFNM fetish in.  Then the clothes fetish.  i washed the dildo and wiped up the excess lube and loving put her panties on.  I really get turned on how she moves her legs and hips to get the panties on her, and I love how it's a team effort.  Then her PJ bottoms.  This was a slow process, with some sexual banter about our ongoing sexual activities.

The next time we played, she didn't come but she teased the shit out of me.  OMG, it was an intense session.  She would stroke me and then firmly grab my balls.  It turned my mind to mush.  I literraly felt paralyzed.  When she thought I'd had enough, she simply stopped and we cuddled.

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Lastly, she had wanted to go to a sex shop for more toys.  It was fun going with her.  She wanted to buy some toys "for her lover only".  We spent a shitload of money.  We got two high end vibrators and I can't wait to try them out.

There was a heavy-set female cashier at the store, and I was wondering what Suzy was thinking about the interactions we had with her.  As Suzy was looking for some toys or outfits, I asked the employee: "do you have a vibrator that can go inside her but have enough room for me to do oral on her?"  She helps us get this toy.  It seemed weird - even to me but I think more to Suzy - to be so open with a complete stranger; it felt like she was our sexual consultant.  Well, I guess that's her job.  The other vibe we got also came recommended by her, "that's my favorite one".  LOL

LASTLY, I found an article that pointed to this website about female sexuality.  Interested Suzy?

Sunday, February 21, 2016

What I get from being a hotwife/cuckold husband

We still are enjoying the "hotwife lifestyle".  I thought I'd post a note about what I get out of my wife having sex with other men.

Validation - I think my wife is super sexy.  I think her face is very pretty.  Plus, she's got D-cup breasts that even after 20 years of marriage still make my heart beat faster when she wears a revealing outfit.  Her ass is super hot too.  And her pussy.... Fuck it, I think everything about her is sexy.  But here's the thing - I'm the husband.  Of course I think she's sexy.  But other men admiring her, getting hard for her, climaxing with her.  Just as it is a validation of her, it's a validation of me.  I have a sexy wife, and other men think so too.  What husband does NOT want other men turned on by his wife?

Variety - I made the varsity basketball team, but did not play much.  I could not claim that I was the best player.  Likewise, I don't think I can claim that I am the best lover for my wife.  There are likely other men that are more skilled at sex than I am.  That have better "attributes" in terms of youth, sexual stamina, cock size, six pack abs, etc.  I don't want to deprive my wife of those experiences.  I am equally "jealous" of that than I was over ball players that were better than me.  Some are just gifted with more ability.  Not everyone can be Michael Jordan.  I do expect that her increased experience will pay dividends for us, will improve our intimacy.

Voyeur - Hotwifing is a team sport.  I really do get turned on when she tells me how many "suitors" are pursuing her and her telling me which ones are turning her on.  A major hump to this lifestyle was when she felt comfortable verbally telling me which men turned her on.  First, it was Brad Pitt, her celebrity crush.  Then, it was "Cory" the young, studly, tattooed waiter.  I would swear she skipped a heartbeat when she saw him.  I admit that I was a little embarrassed about this due to it being in front of our kids, but I value her raw sexual reactions.  I do not feel bad about myself if she is attracted to others.  But being a part of the story is extremely exciting.  Rather I value the honesty.  She is a sexual being, and can be aroused by other men.  I like her being honest with me and telling me about it.  

Compersion - Dangit, not everything starts with a 'V'.  I enjoy her being happy.  "Compersion" is defined as "an empathetic state of happiness and joy experienced when another individual experiences happiness and joy".  Basically, I'm happy that she's happy.  Her being pleasured sexually does not threaten me.  Rather, it's exciting to me.  Think about when it's someone you love's birthday.  Are you happy when they enjoy a gift they receive?  I sure am!  Basically, I'm happy when my wife is sexually satisfied.  When my wife denies my orgasm, but she is pleasured, I still am happy.  I love it when she enjoys sex.  I think her orgasm gives me more pleasure than my own.  I want her to be happy.

Well, here she is.  Enjoy!  I LOVE this woman!

Saturday, February 20, 2016

"Now that's three for me and two for you; maybe I need a fourth"

Sex partners, that is.

I lost my virginity in high school - I wouldn't say it was the greatest experience.  I had no clue what I was doing.  When Suzy and I met, she was a virgin and this time last year, I was the only sex partner she had.  In June of last year, Suzy evened the score with her "friend".  She and her "friend" had three total sexual experiences.  It seemed to Suzy that once he had made his "conquest", he was no longer interested, so they no longer play, although they do still communicate.  I guess they're still friends.

Last week, Suzy met who I previously called "Guy #3".  Now I'm calling him "Mike".  He is in his late 20s and is in a sexless longterm relationship.  They previously met for a coffee date and Suzy decided to pursue it further.  They had their first sexual experience last week.

I would like Suzy to comment on her own blog about that experience.

I was a bit struck by her comment that now she now has had more sex partners than me, thus this blog post.  Suzy does not seem to be actively pursuing other playmates, but the thought that - being the "hotwife" - she can really put me in sub-space.  She seems to like (appreciate?) that the three of her lovers are all "different".  I'd like her to better explain that - but she had a big smile on her face when she said that.  Perhaps she will go for lover #4.  Variety is the spice of life ;-)

It is likely that they will play again.  Originally, he was available for tomorrow and Monday but it now seems more likely they will play on Monday.  She had a big smile on her face about the prospect of playing with him at our house.  Yes, the plan is for her to host.  Anyway, I can tell she is very excited by the idea.  We shall see.

So how do I feel about this?  Jealousy?  I would say I had "angst" not knowing how things were going during their encounter.  And I wanted her to have a good time.  But not really jealousy.  I don't regret that she has had more sexual partners then me - it turns me on a lot actually.  I'm excited for her to have an even better experience with him for encounter #2 or any other men she would like to play with.  As I said before, cuckolding in reality has been more exciting than the fantasy.

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But I am very horny.  I checked our orgasm log, and I haven't had an orgasm for two weeks.  So, I'm going pretty batty.  During one of our recent sexual encounters, Suzy agreed that we should shoot for a goal of 100 orgasms for her in 2016.  She's at 11, so we need to pick up the pace a bit.  It just seems like she has more opportunities for climaxes now.  We shall see....

Saturday, February 6, 2016

The question of going back to "vanilla"

Patty of the cuckoldingnathan blog answered a reader question around if her partner decided he no longer wanted to pursue the cuckolding lifestyle.  I believe we are in sync with her response.  However, since we are pretty new to this - and Suzy's initial involvement was so exciting to both of us - it's not exactly a fair question just yet.

The question another way might be: what would be my reaction if Suzy wanted to stop kinky sex, and go back to "vanilla"?

Prior to our last play session, I had been really craving to be dominated.  It had been a while since she had a session with cock and ball torture, nipple torture, edging, and tease and denial.  I had been craving being kinky.  I asked Suzy about being tying me up and spanking me on our famous sex talk and she didn't seem that interested.  Then this:

She came to bed and she essentially initiated sex.  Which is AWESOME.  I was naked and she started stroking me and administered some pain to my boys.  Time stood still.  I didn't know if she was going to give me an orgasm or deny me.  Suzy even told me that my breathing pattern was telling her I was getting close, so she would stop stroking me and then play with my chest and nipples.  My erection would subside a bit but once she returned to my cock and balls, I would quickly get rock hard.  She edged me like that a few times and then she turned over and decided that it was time to go to bed.  While she was initially reluctant, I convinced her to have a Hitachi orgasm, which was nice.  I was so horny, but she decided to leave me denied.

It is such a rush for me to have her dominate me like that.  It almost feels like I'm in a trance-like state - others refer to it as "sub-space".  It gives me a tremendous amount of pleasure, to be hard for her and to receive the pain when I am sexually aroused.  I realize this may be hard for Suzy to "get" but I really do want to come.  But I also love it when she decides that she doesn't want me to orgasm.  Her pussy and my cock are both "hers".

Our kinks bring us together.  My "love language" is physical touch, and I really can't get enough all sorts of physical touches with her.  I think it's very hot that my loving soccer mom wife that wouldn't hurt a fly can get kinky and bust her husband's balls - and enjoy it (speaking of that, Suzy, I have been a bit curious about trying a humbler.  Only $30.  Thoughts?).  She makes it hurt so good.  It brings me really closer to her.

So, this is a long winded way of answering: I would be sad, but I would accept it.  Similar to how Patty answered the question around quitting cuckolding cold turkey.  I get a lot of enjoyment around the things we do, and I like it especially when she likes it.  I know she likes sex being about her.  I know she likes inflicting pain on me.  I know she likes being in control of my orgasms.  Our life is good.  I love you baby!

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Her playdate was cancelled.  Bummer.  I can tell that Suzy really wants to play with "guy #3".  Since this seems certain to happen, I will introduce him as "Mike".  We'll see if he is "magic", LOL.  The bummer is that Suzy's period will be starting soon, so it may be another 2 weeks before she can play.