Saturday, August 23, 2014

Spontaneous CFNM experience

I can't stop thinking about how hot one of our escapades was.  We were away from home, she was on her period, and we did not expect any privacy for sex play.  As such, I did not pack the Hitachi wand for her pleasure.  That pretty much put the kabosh on any female orgasms, as that's the only thing she will allow during her monthly visitation.

Well, we unexpectedly had a few hours by ourselves.  I was (as usual) really horny.  I was hoping to ask her for some sort of play, knowing that unfortunately I could not reciprocate any pleasure.  She said that she would play with me, so I got fully undressed and spread out on the bed.

When we normally play, she has some sort of slinky outfit on, and I can see her cleavage pretty well and she lets me fondle her.  This was in the middle of the day, so she had her full "street" clothes on.  Nothing special, I think she had jeans and a T-shirt.  The disparity of the situation, or as I have termed it elsewhere on this blog, the "double standard" turned me on.  I had fantasized about her doing this a lot, except with her full work clothes on.  Wow, I couldn't believe how excited this made me!

I spread my legs wide, she had full access to anything she wanted to play with.  She got me hard and then said something to the effect of "I may just stop and not let you come".  I was so deep into "sub-space" that I couldn't really think of what to say.  I think I mumbled something like, "well, that's up to you, you're in charge".

She stroked me more and I honestly didn't know what was going to happen.  I could see it going either way: not allowing me to come because she couldn't, or letting me come to relieve my horniness.

She started doing ball torture and it felt so wonderful being under her control, being completely helpless.  I did come and it was a wonderful, fantastic sensation.  As I climaxed, she was smacking my balls hard and it was just a fantastic orgasm.  I was unable to move for a few minutes.

As I was coming down from my orgasm, I still felt very vulnerable, perhaps even a tinge of humiliation.  She went back to doing some phone stuff, and I was left with a pretty big mess to clean up, still completely nude but with a flaccid cock and all my horniness drained from my system.

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I wish I could communicate to her how thrilling this type of play is for me.  I've told her about it before, cognizant that she could mis-interpret this fetish; that somehow I don't find her nude body attractive.  That is not the case.  It's the power imbalance that I crave.

Been a while...

I fell of the blogosphere for a while, I suppose for a number of reasons.  I have mainly been viewing (and sometimes commenting on) forums as opposed to blogs.  I checked out a few of the blogs that I used to follow and was a bit surprised by the number that have been stalled out, particularly that of "subservient husband".  He seemed very committed to the femdom lifestyle and I hope things are going well for them.

Our summer was very "vanilla" at first.  When we were on vacation, we had a fair amount of sex.  One time, earlier in the day, we had sex and I came and then we went out for a bit and a few hours later, she initiated sex again.  I could not get hard!  Ugh!  WTF?  My dream come true, and I failed.  I have had two instances of ED in my life, and they were both cases where we tried to have sex more than once in a day.  The first time was more than 10 years ago; We had sex twice and I could not get up for a third time.  Then this time, I could not get up for round 2.

After we had got back from our vacations, my Queen got very interested in teasing and denying me.  I haven't been that great about keeping my orgasm tracker up to date, but we had a period where I was teased and denied and even locked up in the chastity cage.  That was fun!  Interestingly, I got a rare chance at back to back sex Thursday and Friday night.  She teased me about my refractory period issues, basically "challenging" me, taunting me that she didn't think I'd be "up" for it.  Well, I was!  Very vanilla sex, but very satisfying as well.  I did it doggy style and had a decent amount of stamina.  Not sure if we will be able to go for another round tonight, but I think I could do it.

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I love her very much.  We still have our communication issues, but I believe that her acceptance of our more kinky side has really made me feel very good about our relationship.  It's hard for me to explain, I guess it makes me feel "understood" and loved when she is willing to play a little naughty.