The last time we played, my Queen said that she might want me to wait until our anniversary before I could come. That was a longtime away! I don't know if she realized, but that amounted to about two months of chastity (for me).
I was interested in playing last night and she denied me. Not in a sexy way. She said she wanted "just to cuddle". I get a little annoyed at this. To me, what makes Femdom work is her getting hers but me not getting mine. Not playing at all is celibacy, which isn't sexy at all.
She had a totally lame reason for all this and actually apologized in the morning. She said she would "take care" of me tonight.
The thing is: I am not sure I want to orgasm. I want to play. I want to get hard and feel the desire in my loins. I am horny as hell and want to tell her my latest fantasies. They don't necessarily involve me orgasming.
I woke up with some wicked horny thoughts. I wanted her to be mean. Rough. I crave domination, not orgasm. If she left me chaste until our anniversary, I would be OK with that.
What I fantasized about is her being mean to me. I have never felt this way before, but in my dreams/fantasies, I was excited by the idea of her slapping me. Measuring my cock and telling me I wasn't big enough for her pussy. Smack my balls. Fuck me cowgirl style and not let me come. Force me to eat her pussy.
Holy cow, I am horny just thinking about this.
Anyone else crave their female partners being mean?