Sunday, May 11, 2014

Rare Male Foreplay

We played on Friday night.  My Queen hasn't been in the mood for sex.  On Wednesday (I think) she teased and denied me but did not have an orgasm of her own (she refused).  It was a pretty hot vanilla denial session.  She said that my moaning really turned her on, but unfortunately not enough to change her mind about foregoing her orgasm.

It started out pretty vanilla.  I was kissing her, getting her in the mood.  She said that she wanted to come.  I did the standard "finger in her upper pussy with the Hitachi on her clit" move.  She had a great orgasm.  I was rock hard and tried to get in her pussy.  She didn't let me in.  I didn't know what to make of that.  Either she needed more time to recover from her orgasm or she didn't think I needed an orgasm.

It was the former.  I laid on top of her, kissing her and allowing her to come down.  I then got up and "displayed" my arousal.  She gave me the most foreplay I have had in a very long time, but one thing that was very erotic about it was that she never physically touched my cock.  She instead administered ball torture on me.  It was mainly pulling on my scrotum.  In doing so, it created an indirect stimulation of my cock.  I was ROCK HARD.  She would slap my balls every now and then as well.  It was an erotic experience, and I wanted to come badly.  I don't often see my own erection, but I couldn't help but look down and see how big and hard it was.

I asked her if I could penetrate her and she said yes.  I got a Tshirt to catch the semen and I began pumping.  As we had an unexpected guest, she wanted me to be quite.  It is hot for me when she demands that I fuck a certain way.  Her demand was that I be as quiet as possible so as not to arouse suspicion.  As if I wasn't horny enough, that really got me deep into subspace.  I started fantasizing about her telling me, "look, you are not fucking me quiet enough, so you are done now".  But she didn't.  I asked her if I cold come and she said yes.

As I approached my orgasm, she started pinching my nipples.  I didn't want to top from the bottom, so I said as generally as I could, "Suzy, I don't think you can pinch them hard enough" and with that she really dug into my nipples and I had a terrific orgasm in her pussy.

Friday, May 9, 2014

Craving Domination: Wives being Mean

The last time we played, my Queen said that she might want me to wait until our anniversary before I could come.  That was a longtime away!  I don't know if she realized, but that amounted to about two months of chastity (for me).

I was interested in playing last night and she denied me.  Not in a sexy way.  She said she wanted "just to cuddle".  I get a little annoyed at this.  To me, what makes Femdom work is her getting hers but me not getting mine.  Not playing at all is celibacy, which isn't sexy at all.

She had a totally lame reason for all this and actually apologized in the morning.  She said she would "take care" of me tonight.

The thing is: I am not sure I want to orgasm.  I want to play.  I want to get hard and feel the desire in my loins.  I am horny as hell and want to tell her my latest fantasies.  They don't necessarily involve me orgasming.

I woke up with some wicked horny thoughts.  I wanted her to be mean.  Rough.  I crave domination, not orgasm.  If she left me chaste until our anniversary, I would be OK with that.

What I fantasized about is her being mean to me.  I have never felt this way before, but in my dreams/fantasies, I was excited by the idea of her slapping me.  Measuring my cock and telling me I wasn't big enough for her pussy.  Smack my balls.  Fuck me cowgirl style and not let me come.  Force me to eat her pussy.

Holy cow, I am horny just thinking about this.

Anyone else crave their female partners being mean?

Sunday, May 4, 2014

Expectations ~ Aftermath

Well, we did have sex last night.  It was very late and she kept telling me she just wanted to cuddle.  I was having none of that.  I kissed her and groped her a lot and then I asked her if she was aroused and said “yes, I want an orgasm now”.  I got the Hitachi and started fingering her pussy and applying the Hitachi to her clit.  She made a positive comment to me and said she loves the feeling when I finger the top of her vagina.  She then said, “I want you inside me, can you handle it”?

My cock slid in effortlessly because she was so wet.  It felt great.  I penetrated her the same way as before, slow and deep.  For some reason, it was taking her longer to come and I was having a hard time staying focused due to her moans of pleasure and how horny I was.  My cock kinda came out of her pussy and I couldn’t really get back in, especially because she had just started her orgasm.  I believe I in fact had a ruined orgasm while she was climaxing.  It was somewhat surreal.  She came hard and my cock was unstimulated except that I think my head touched her thigh.  I know that my cock did spasm but I did not feel a lot of pleasure and I maintained my erection (I normally am able to stay hard after a ruined orgasm, but never after a complete one). 

She didn’t realized that I "ejaculated" because it all happened while she was coming.  She said that there was a huge wet spot and “that didn’t come from me”, and yet she could tell that I was still available for intercourse.  She told me that access to her pussy was denied, and “maybe tomorrow night” I could come.

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I have had a rough patch sex wise.  I have come during cunnilingus, she gave me a handjob with an incomplete orgasm (I didn't know this at the time, but according to her, she had attempted to delay my orgasm by pulling down on my scrotum and I came while she did that, but it was not a full orgasm for sure), and now I "self ruined" an orgasm.  Ugh.  My sexual confidence is not that high right now.  To some extent, I am getting more turned on by her "humiliation" of my sexual mishaps, but on the other hand I am frustrated at these events also.

In hindsight, I think my wife did not want me to come last night, and I didn't (really).  So, things seem ok, we are off the holiday vanilla sex, and she is back to dominating me.  I love that woman.

Saturday, May 3, 2014


One of the many areas we diverge are differences in expectations.  Thinking of the sex play I expect to have tonight makes me hornier.  My Queen, on the other hand, hates any expectation of sex.

We last had sex on Tuesday.  It was a great experience for both of us.  She came quite nicely with my cock in her pussy and the Hitachi on her clit.  She verbally recognized that she liked the slow and deep penetration I did.  I really like it when she gives me feedback like that regarding sex.  For whatever reason, I had pretty good stamina that night and after she came, I got a T-shirt and placed it under her and then finished off in her pussy.

We have not had any sex play since then.  She stayed up really late on Thursday and was therefore too tired to play Friday night.  Today is one of those days that it really feels like we will be playing, with some sexual tension between us:

  • While we were texting about something serious, she made a lighthearted comment about her co-workers enjoying a potluck item she made.  She used one of those emoticons and it seriously looked like a pair of butt cheeks to me and I told her so.  She said, of course I would think that and then sent a bikini emoticon.  Then, she sent a lock and key, a non-subtle reference to me being locked up and I instantly became erect.  Not sure if this will happen, but she clearly was thinking about chastity.  We shall see.
  • We were driving and the Devo song "whip it" came on.  She smiled and sung a little loudly about "whipping it".
  • During our shopping trip she intentionally looked at me smiling and asked if I needed nuts.
  • She has complained several times today that I did not cuddle her last night.  Several times.
  • A child brought up the idea that I could grow out a beard and she very quickly corrected that I could not.  She does not like facial hair on me and it turned me on how assertive she was about that.
  • She has been a little more bossy lately, telling me what to do and so forth.  She texted me last night to make her a drink (not asking, but told me to).

I shaved my chest today, and that act alone, when it is in preparation for sex, turns me on a lot.  When my chest is shaved she almost always runs her hands over it and makes a positive comment.

Sex lately has been somewhat "vanilla".  We tend to go more vanilla around vacations and holidays and sometimes it takes us a while to get back into female domination.  As kinky as I am, it is nice to "go vanilla" periodically.  But I am really hoping to be dominated tonight.  The fact of the matter is, I am really very horny.  I hope she will play with me.