Last night was particularly spectacular. She woke me up for the session by pinching my nipples hard. She carressed my body and then played with my balls and was really rough with them. She smacked my hard cock around. I was in deep sub-space. It felt so good to be so controlled by her. She has a knack for pushing my limits just a tad beyond what I would have asked for, but nevertheless it is thrilling to "take it like a man".
Back to dirty talking: she has been assertive about telling me that she is ready for her orgasm. I find that to be very hot. After she was done playing with me, she said she wanted to climax and wanted me to finger her (she was very wet from dominating me). We ended up with me fingering her pussy with the Hitachi on her clit. Awesome.
We cuddled ALL night last night. As we were waking up, we were still all over each other. I feel flooded with oxytocin. Oxytocin is the "love molecule" in our body. Brain levels increase with physical touching, and creates a feeling of trust. It is our chemical way of bonding to one another. Various blog posts I've read postulate that when we orgasm, the oxytocin gets broken down. That is responsible for the post orgasm crash. Being denied for 15 days, I've not experienced that crash at all but rather am madly in love (lust) with her. I feel very emotionally close to her right now. Isn't that what marriage is about?
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My Queen has reiterated several times that I am not going to orgasm until Valentine's Day weekend. During our play session last night, she implied that she had a special plan on how I would be released but it was on a need to know basis, and I don't need to know yet.