Sunday, March 24, 2013

Orgasm Denial Play Resumes

I haven't had a lot of time to blog lately, nor read very many other blogs.  A quick recap:

I disappointed Suzy during my period of male chastity device lockup.  She said that I should masturbate, which I did, to get my head cleared up.  I will let my orgasm tracker page speak for itself, but there had basically been a long time since I had experienced a truly satisfying orgasm.  My time with myself was no exception, it was not that pleasurable, maybe a 3-4 on a scale of 10.  But I did experience relief enough to the point that I could focus more on my job instead of sex.

Not much had happened since then.  I had a business trip and Suzy went on her period during the time I was gone.  She gave me a handjob after I got back (our absence had made both our hearts fonder for one another, but she was still on her period), she came with the Hitachi through her pad.  What was noteworthy about the handjob was that after a while, Suzy went back to ball torture.  It seemed like she felt I wasn't going to come very quickly, and decided to speed things up by giving me that added stimulation.  What was somewhat amusing about this, was that she was slapping my scrotum like a metronome, at very regular intervals.  I came pretty hard, probably a 7-8.  I figured that the added stimulation of the ball slaps increased the intensity of my orgasm by 2-3 'points'.

As I was groping her during bedtime a few days later, I realized her period was over, and I think the next day, we had a 'quickie' sex - not much foreplay, I didn't last that long insider her, but it was still a decent '6' orgasm.  One of the joys of sex for me - feeling that my partner doesn't have that bulge in her crotch, but it's smooth and sexy and feminine.
Before we go on our trip, we will have a day without kids.  During our pillow talk, Suzy mentioned that I might need to be naked, except for maybe an apron that day.  My CFNM fetish will be going wild!
We went on a day trip yesterday, and I could sense she would be up for some sex play.  She stayed up quite late working on our next outing, and then we got to some playing.  She surprised me.  I figured we'd have some more extended intercourse, with some foreplay, and longer endurance from me, since it hadn't been that long since I had orgasmed.  She then made it clear that she did not want me to come and did not want me to penetrate her.  I accepted this, and uttered a bunch of horny dirty talk to her.  I poked her with my erection (which felt really good), and then she didn't take much persuading to allow a quick vibrator orgasm.  She then teased me a bit, being rather aggressive with a nipple, and talked about her plan for our trip.

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It doesn't seem that I will be coming until we go on our 'mini honeymoon'.  We will be without the kids for the first time in ever.  During this trip, we will get out some of the toys we bought via mail order.  She made it clear that intense ball torture would occur.  She suggested locking me up in chastity leading up to the trip, even specifically calling out the Birdlock by name.  In my horny dirty talk rage, I mentioned that I would like to play with the male chastity device more.  Sometimes I feel like I will regret what I say when I am really horny like that.  At any rate, I told her my high level thoughts on the device, that I don't particularly like to be locked up during the workweek, and that I would enjoy a weekend of chastity whereby Friday night I might be locked, and if she doesn't want me to orgasm, she simply keeps me locked through Monday morning, and then unlocks before work.  Perhaps I should expand on this a bit more, but I can tell this post is getting long winded.  So that's all for now.  We closed our play time with her agreeing that she likes 'sex for the wife's pleasure' and that we would probably be using a lot of toys on our trip.  Can't wait :-)

Suzy alluded to the fact that we will be bringing some toys on our trip, and some of them would be causing me pain.  Make it hurt so good, sexy goddess!!!

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Lockup Fail

This sucks
Unfortunately, things in our relationship went sharply downhill.  It was a big fail.  I can't go into the details, but it did not have anything to do with our attempt at a "female led marriage", or "sex is for the woman's pleasure" bedroom times.  I did not "take matters into my own hands" or betray her trust.  But I did disappoint her, and for that I am sorry.  I didn't meet her expectations.

And unfortunately, we don't fight very well.  As our peers were getting married, I had heard someone joking at a wedding reception that wise marriage advice was: "keep the fights clean and the sex dirty".  I agree with this advice, we have had some pretty dirty (kinky) sex lately, but we don't fight that well.
"Keep the sex dirty and the fights clean"

It's in my makeup to get over things fairly quickly.  Even when she is "in the wrong", I can put things behind me fairly quickly.  She cannot.  So, her expectations were not met, she confronted me about it, and I didn't fight cleanly.  I have been miserable ever since.

Instead, my prior week's lockup period ended horribly un-erotically.  She basically threw the key to my chastity device at me and said, "I don't want your thing locked up forever", or something like that.  Then, not knowing the full extent to her disappointment, I tried to be amorous with her on a subsequent night, my poor cock poking at her, and she basically said, "I think you should masturbate".
We didn't have a lot of teasing with her holding the keys to my chastity device.
I did.  I had so much pent up horniness that I needed to relieve the pressure.  But it wasn't that pleasurable.  It did help me focus on the job, anyway.

So, I am not sure what lies ahead of us in the short term.  My wife is the type of person that has to have everything just right in her world in order to feel sexual.  I don't see that happening anytime soon.  I certainly do have a lot of sexual thoughts to blog about.  I remain horny and excited by our femdom sex play.  I hope it returns soon!