|Sometimes I am caught off guard by my arousals...in public!|
I tried to bring it up again once we were back in our vehicle, but she would have none of it. Conversation dropped.
I struggle with discussing this sort of (ultra) kink with Suzy. We have reached a pretty good place in that I feel comfortable communicating my kinky desires with her, but I also don't want to overdue it, to appear to be topping from the bottom, or pressuring her. I have some issues with cuckolding myself, but I do find it to be very arousing. Like other aspects of my femdom desires, I don't completely understand it myself. Why would a husband give his blessing to have his wife have sex with other men? Here are my thoughts:
- I am turned on by the inequity of cuckolding. That is, that she can play with others but I am to remain faithful/monogamous. As I have stated in prior posts, sex is 90% mental, and this "double standard" - even if not taken advantage of - is a big turn on to me as a sub.
- Two men determined to maximize her sexual pleasure is just hot.
- Mechanically, a single male is limited in resources he can provide. For example, when I am massaging Suzy, I can focus on her back or stimulating her sides/breast/armpit/neck (she really enjoys this stimulation). It would excite me to have another male to help pleasure her simultaneously, with an endless variety. I would think that having both breasts sucked on would be a real overwhelming turnon for Suzy. Or, I could massage her back and neck while the other male massages her feet.
- I would love to watch Suzy being sexually pleasured. When I am performing the sex act, I usually have my eyes closed, or if I want to come quickly, I will look Suzy in the eyes or look at her breasts. I am so turned on by her sounds and sexiness that I come very quickly when I take it in. I am a voyeur. The closest I can get to this is when I apply a vibrator to her and watch her writhe in pleasure during her climax. It would really turn me on to just watch Suzy being sexually pleasured.
|Part of what excites me about "cuckolding" or "hotwifing"|
is the double standard.
* * * * *Should Suzy warm up to the idea, I think it would be important to have a good communication in how this might work. For example, it may be best to set some general ground rules. Taking it slowly - perhaps meeting the stud for drinks to make sure we are comfortable with playing; or, having a young buck assist in a full body massage and then he leaves and I pleasure her more. Something like that. Instead of intercourse, we could "entertain" her by jerking off.
|Nerve racking fantasy!!|