We had been sexting a lot yesterday. I kept thinking about sex, especially the domination I received from her the last time I came . I came to the conclusion that the confidence she had displayed that night - and has kept up in our last three play sessions - is what turns me on so much. She was on a mission. She knew what she wanted to do to me and simply overwhelmed me sexually. Likewise, in our past three sessions, she has confidently decided and communicated that she likes me to be denied and horny for her. She has left no room for interpretation, no "wiggle room". I asked that she allow me to lock up in the chastity belt, and she flatly denied that too - she likes me to struggle with self-control and she likes feeling my physical longing for her pressing against her hot bod. When I mentioned to her that she has had five orgasms in a row (a sportscaster might say "five unanswered female orgasms"), she had a big smile on her face and said very coyly, "I love the control".
A lot of times when I think about the excitement of her being in charge, I connect the dots with things that made me "feel funny" (sexually aroused, before I understood those feelings as such) as I was growing up. When I think of confident woman from my impressionable years, Madonna springs to mind. She wasn't the best singer, but she definitely knew what she wanted and went after it full throttle. She famously told Dick Clark (before she had hit it big) that she was going to "rule the world". That she did. Is there any doubt in your mind that when she took a lover, it was going to be all about her? Same with Queen Suzy lately! Hot!
|Madonna exuded confidence, which I found arousing as a youth;|
Now, Queen Suzy's display of sexual confidence is turning me on!
When we first got married, Suzy was pre-orgasmic. I had to practically beg her to let me use a vibrator to try to bring her to orgasm. Fast forward to today, and it is a foregone conclusion that she will climax. Me? I am kept guessing.
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I was a little caught off guard by the denial last night. Between orgasms, she said something along the lines of "I bet you're having a hard time concentrating at work". I really thought that was a segue to an orgasm for me. She generally doesn't want me going to work that horny, since my work performance is pretty important to both of us. She's used that reasoning before: I will give you a quick handjob so you can be better at work. I think that's part of what was so arousing last night. I really like the unexpected when it comes to sex play. I thought: I'm probably getting denied, I may get a handjob, and then finally: I like you horny. I wonder what will come tonight!