Thursday, December 29, 2011

Shameless Eye Candy for Suzy

I saw this ad while surfing other blogs. I thought Suzy would enjoy it; young men with firm bods that use their undies as a sort of weird kangaroo pouch. The "demo" at ~43 seconds seems painful to me, and I don't think I would eat that apple, lol.  Suzy has been teasing me about other men lately, which turns me on in my weird, submissive way, lol.

And speaking of sexy ads, I saw this ad in a men's fitness magazine while working out. This image turns me on!
HOT PHOTO!  I love how the woman is helping herself to his bod.
Is she teasing him, or about to get his last bit of clothing out of the way for him to pleasure her?
The ad makes me think of our dating days, when Suzy would reach into my pants, getting close to my genitals, and sometimes she would "accidentally" brush my cock, but only for a second.   I appreciate that now, even though at the time I was somewhat frustrated.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

"I'm glad you got a vasectomy"

My domme wife ended my period of chastity of 22 days (without any lockup) following her 10th orgasm.  She teased me a bit about how many more orgasms she had and seemed a little conflicted about whether she should allow me release or not.  She enjoyed my throbbing cock against her body as she contemplated my fate.  She decided to give me a "thumbs up" (cocks up?) to have penetrative sex with her and to ejaculate inside her.  I got up to get some lube (since it had been some time since her orgasm, I thought that was best), and as I was putting it on my cock, she said, "I'm glad you got a vasectomy".  I was a little caught off guard by that comment.  Was that a compliment?  Was it meant to communicate that she enjoys worry free sex?  That's how I took it, and I do agree that putting the kabosh on my reproductive capability is liberating.

We were both satisfied after a long period
of male chastity
I penetrated her for longer than I had expected - given my long period of chastity - but I penetrated her VERY slowly.  I wanted to savor the time in her pussy.  After a while of this slow penetration, Suzy prodded me to speed things up.  She initiated dirty talking, which turned me on.  I finally came hard and I felt a supreme sense of relief in my loins.  It felt like I had a backlog of semen and that it was taking a while to clear it out.  Suzy never mentioned the load size and any subsequent oozing, like she normally does.  She did say that most of it came out as we were discussing my orgasm.
Afterword, Suzy said to me, "we'll have to do that more often to get you trained for better endurance".  I said that I would be up to that ;)  I definitely like that thought of Queen Suzy training me to better satisfy her sexually.  The theme of this session was very much about the enjoyment of penetrative sex.  We still have some time left in our vacation, so perhaps she can begin training me!

Queen Suzy can be like the crew captain in the front,
urging me to work harder to better cross the "finish line" of sex.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

My Queen has returned to the Femdom Blogosphere!!

Please check out her recent post.  I am proud and pleased that she has been reading my blog again, but was quite blown away that she posted on her blog.  Love that domme!

No, you may not cum on this or any other day! The Queen has spoken.
The Queen has spoken!!

Friday, December 23, 2011

Uncertain Release Date; Quality of Orgasms

Suzy has a few options she's using to decide about my release date.

I am grateful that Queen Suzy has resumed reading my blog. She enjoys the recaps of our play times - and, I'm guessing, my analysis of the events. It does not appear that she will return to blogging or comment on my posts, but rather I might get some feedback from her verbally.

Yesterday was a bit chaotic.  She ran around doing errands and I had some work related stuff.  I was then rather tired, and tried to take a nap.  I didn't really fall asleep.  I am thinking of Suzy a ton lately.  It has been almost three weeks since I have climaxed.  To put in some context, my last orgasm was spectacular, after I had been thoroughly dominated by her - tied up and all.  Then, last minute items from work really picked up, and then Suzy had her period.  I have been subjected to heavy tease and denial for a little over a week now.  Suzy has mixed the teasing up nicely.  I don't believe she touched my cock last night (but she did squeeze my balls hard during her orgasm), but that was after the prior night where she allowed me to penetrate her pussy.  A big part of what I am enjoying about this sex play is the uncertainty.  Uncertainty of my release date, uncertainty of the teasing, uncertainty as to what she will wear, and uncertainty as to what she do and say during our play times.

She has been very vague and confusing about my (future) release date.  She has implied the following:

  • I will be released after she has gone into the "double digits" of female orgasms.  This itself is ambiguous, because it could mean as soon as she gets ten, I get released, or it could mean some vague time after she has reached ten.  I am not sure.
  • I will be released at Christmas, which should coincide with the double digit milestone (she is at 7 now).
  • I will be release at New Years'
  • I will be released after a month of chastity (which would be January 4 or so).
She breaks out a smile when she confuses me about this.  It's pretty clear that she enjoys the control and teasing me about it.

As she entered the bedchamber last night, I wasn't sure where her head was at.  I picked up on the fact that she seemed to be a little detached.  She confided in me that she had felt "blah" all day.  I do not believe she meant physically bad, but rather something was bothering her.  Perhaps this is something that she couldn't really put her finger on.  What followed surprised me.  At first, I was thinking this might mean a night of "her cuddling", meaning less sexual (perhaps no orgasm for her).  I was thankful that she responded to my caressing and that she seemed open to me fingering her.  In contrast to the prior sessions, she was not that wet, in spite of a fair amount of foreplay.  I wanted to finger her to an orgasm, but it just "didn't seem like it was going to happen".  So, I got out the Hitachi Magic Wand, she beckoned me to get in position for her to grab my genitals, and away we went.  What was surprising is that even though she didn't seem in a very sexy mood, she came HARD.  In fact, it seemed like one of the better orgasms she'd had lately, and that's saying a lot!  It was female orgasm nirvana: intense and long.  Just like I like them.  Just like she likes them.

In our afterglow conversation, she asked me about the ball squeezing during her climax.  She has been more aggressive with this lately.  She said, "I don't think about the pain anymore; when I am coming, I just want to bear down and squeeze hard."  I countered that I thought she does care about the pain, she seems to enjoy giving it to me.  The fact of the matter is, she has been rough on my boys lately, but it is a turn on for me.  I like the risk and I like that she is doing it during her orgasm.  I like the primal nature of it.  I've said this before, and I'll say it again: sex is a messy and violent act.  I think we should come up with a name for this particular sex act, since we do it so often.  It makes me think of when I was in high school, and I was driving around with my buds that took a turn really hard, we would grab on to the "oh shit bar" in the vehicle.

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I need to get going.  The Quality of Orgasms piece is something that I have considered blogging about for a while.  What made me think of this topic was that even though Suzy seemed very "blah" she had a fantastic orgasm.  I have a pretty good idea as to what factors go into the quality of male orgasms.  I will blog about that next, unless something in our sex play takes preeminence over that (which, frankly, is likely).  My main thesis, however, will be that I don't notice much of a pattern as far as what improves Suzy's climaxes, whereas there are certain things that I think - as a general rule increase the odds that I will have an earth-shattering orgasm.  Not that I need to be worried about that anytime soon ;-)

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Mocking my cock, a (future) punishment, and pineapple juice

Suzy knows how to control her slave!
One thing I neglected to mention in my prior post was a new cock and ball torture that Suzy invented.  As I have blogged about before, it is pretty common for Suzy to grasp my cock or balls when I am using the vibrator for her orgasm.  The risk (to my genitals) that she will become enthralled in her pleasure and squeeze very hard is exciting to us both.  It adds a twist of irony to the proceedings that I think Suzy finds amusing.  While she is experiencing "curl her toes" orgasmic pleasure, I experience pain.  This is exciting for both of us because she really lets herself go, and can be quite rough with my man-bits.  She did so for her first orgasm Monday night, and she grabbed my scrotum really hard.  It was quite painful, but in a good way (for a masochist like myself). 

As she was basking in her orgasm, she "mocked my cock".  She retained her tight grip on my scrotum.  She pulled down hard, and joked "why won't this thing detach?".  She then used my scrotum as a "remote control" for my cock.  She was obviously amused that she could control the direction of my erect cock by forcefully moving my scrotum.  She had some impressive control ~ she pointed my erection downwards and upwards, and a little bit side-by-side ~ just from her grip on my scrotum.  It was kind of funny, and it definitely felt like she was using my genitals purely for her entertainment.  I recall when we were first married, she was so delicate with my genitals.  She is clearly enjoying exploring my limits and "manhandling" them now.
Suzy's new cock and ball torture felt like she was using
my scrotum as a cock remote control.  She was very
amused by this!

My Queen is off work this week, and I should have been too, had it not been for an unexpected event at work.  Such is life.  I have been trying to get up early while she rests peacefully in her slumber.  She informed me via text that she was not pleased that I did not prepare breakfast for her, and that I was to expect a punishment.  As her slave, I apologized and explained that I thought that she would prefer sleeping than being woken by breakfast in bed.  Well, I was wrong.  It appears that she has decided my punishment should be forced watching of a Chick Flick.  Something called New Year's Eve, which is (I am told) out in the theaters now.

My Queen bought some pineapple juice for me to prepare her cocktails.  I enjoy bartending generally, but she is a bit of a challenge in that most standard cocktails are too strong for her.  She wants cocktails that are fruity and mask the taste of alcohol.  I prepared her such a drink last night, which she appeared to enjoy.  She coyly mentioned that I should be drinking the pineapple juice.  This was a subtle innuendo that I picked up on right away.  My bride does not like fellatio because she does not like the taste of my pre-cum.  This is distressing to me, so I have researched how to improve the taste of my man-juice.  The most consistent remedy is consumption of pineapple juice.  That was what she was referring to with regard to pineapple juice.  You want a nice blowie?  Take some steps to taste better!

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We played last night.  I will try to be succinct because this is already a longish post.  So I will highlight in bullet-point fashion:
  • As dinner was being prepared, she asked about my blog(!).  She apparently read some of it but did not make any comments to me about it.  I hope she is pleased with my blogging, and would love for her to rejoin the femdom blogosphere.
  • Our play session started with a back massage.  She let me play with her breasts and then she spent a good bit of time stimulating me.  I was on my back, legs spread and she stroked my cock and slapped my balls.  Her hand stimulation was very slow and I was getting very excited.  She then mentioned that she wanted me to penetrate her pussy, but she was very clear and firm that she did not want me to come.  I was in deep sub-space at that point.  Her tone was sexy in that she was kind of like saying: are you sure you can handle that?  I don't want you to screw up and come in my pussy.  Can I trust you not to come?
  • I misinterpreted what she wanted.  I thought she wanted my cock to penetrate her for added stimulation while her clit received the stimulation of the vibrator.  We have done that before ~ she wants me to hold out until she has come, then withdraw my cock to let her bask.  Instead, she wanted to reveal the pleasures of her pussy to my cock, and wanted me to voluntarily withdraw if I was approaching orgasm.  Then, she wanted to come.
  • I did as I was told.  I probably had about twenty strokes and then let go.  She climaxed, the Hitachi on her clit while I fingered her pussy.  She was SOOO wet.  I am really turned on when she gets that wet.
  • After she came, I reintroduced my cock in her pussy, but just kind of let it linger in that wet glory.  She did something (kegels?) which felt really great, like her pussy was swallowing up my cock.  I withdrew again, got dressed and we fell asleep together.
  • Suzy was again vague about my release.  She is pleased that she has had 6 orgasms to my 0.  She did a little "smack talking" about that.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Confidence is sexy

My head is spinning with our play recently.  I believe the last time I climaxed was Dec 4th.  It has been a very stressful past few weeks at work (unexpected last minute issue that required me to cancel our vacation plans) and we did not do any playing the week of Suzy's period.  Since then, we have had three tease and denial sessions and five wonderful female orgasms.  This came as a bit unexpected, since Suzy has not been denying me orgasms lately.  She seems to be really enjoying her orgasms and denying mine.  In the past, I was not that sure how she felt about denying me (she seemed to be doing it more for my kinks than hers), but it sure seems like this is something that is going to last a while.  After her second orgasm last night, I was passionately rubbing against her body.  She loves how my desire for her is so strong when I am denied and horny.

We had been sexting a lot yesterday.  I kept thinking about sex, especially the domination I received from her the last time I came .  I came to the conclusion that the confidence she had displayed that night - and has kept up in our last three play sessions - is what turns me on so much.  She was on a mission.  She knew what she wanted to do to me and simply overwhelmed me sexually.  Likewise, in our past three sessions, she has confidently decided and communicated that she likes me to be denied and horny for her.  She has left no room for interpretation, no "wiggle room".  I asked that she allow me to lock up in the chastity belt, and she flatly denied that too - she likes me to struggle with self-control and she likes feeling my physical longing for her pressing against her hot bod.  When I mentioned to her that she has had five orgasms in a row (a sportscaster might say "five unanswered female orgasms"), she had a big smile on her face and said very coyly, "I love the control".

A lot of times when I think about the excitement of her being in charge, I connect the dots with things that made me "feel funny" (sexually aroused, before I understood those feelings as such) as I was growing up.  When I think of confident woman from my impressionable years, Madonna springs to mind.  She wasn't the best singer, but she definitely knew what she wanted and went after it full throttle.  She famously told Dick Clark (before she had hit it big) that she was going to "rule the world".  That she did.  Is there any doubt in your mind that when she took a lover, it was going to be all about her?  Same with Queen Suzy lately!  Hot!
Madonna exuded confidence, which I found arousing as a youth;
Now, Queen Suzy's display of sexual confidence is turning me on!

When we first got married, Suzy was pre-orgasmic.  I had to practically beg her to let me use a vibrator to try to bring her to orgasm.  Fast forward to today, and it is a foregone conclusion that she will climax.  Me?  I am kept guessing.

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I was a little caught off guard by the denial last night.  Between orgasms, she said something along the lines of "I bet you're having a hard time concentrating at work".  I really thought that was a segue to an orgasm for me.  She generally doesn't want me going to work that horny, since my work performance is pretty important to both of us.  She's used that reasoning before: I will give you a quick handjob so you can be better at work.  I think that's part of what was so arousing last night.  I really like the unexpected when it comes to sex play.  I thought: I'm probably getting denied, I may get a handjob, and then finally: I like you horny.  I wonder what will come tonight!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Sexual Bucket List, Part II: Plays well with others

The second part of my sexual bucket list is edgier and involves others.  Here goes:

Sex with another couple
Suzy is pretty clear that my cock has penetrated its last pussy. And my tongue will only be buried in her lips. But I would love to watch - and be watched - having sex with another couple. In other words, a husband and wife screw in front of us, and when they are done, Suzy and I screw in front of them. I have a voyeuristic thing about me. I wonder what real couples do, and perhaps what they might do different if they were deliberately having sex in front of others (put on a show?). I don't think I would last that long when it was "my turn".
Prelude to a foursome in bed; liquid courage

A Knight gives his Princess oral sex whenever she wishes, and when it is within the limits of what he has agreed to do, then that includes when others are present.
I’m sure that it would be amazing fun for all if two couples who practiced Devotional Sex got together one evening. 
Practicing Devotional Sex means that the women would be in charge. As a Knight never ejaculates when with others, the evening would remain erotically charged all of the time, and without the male drive to reach orgasm, this erotic energy would feel energising rather than frustrating.
With Devotional Sex such fun can happen with or without the women swapping Knights. And sexual activity need not go all the way - it will only go as far as both women feel is right at that time.
You can real more about all the possibilities of a Devotional Couple enjoying fun with others in Chapter 12 of my website.
Come on boys, time for a lesson in marine biology!!  This particular item doesn't involve any
swapping of partners, but proximity to passionate!
Porn actor
We have another party join us. But instead of participating in our sex act, this person directs us. For example, he or she would say, "I want you to kiss her and fondle her breasts". And then, "Ok, now suck her left nipple". Basically, I am at the complete control of this "director". He or she is in the know about our FLR and directs it that way. Suzy's pleasure would be the focus of the session, and when directing Suzy, I am teased a lot, perhaps denied. But I would feel like I am simply a marionette puppet with a cock, being paid by this director, and my personal wants and desires are irrelevant: I must do as directed.  I suppose in its easiest form, this could involve a web camera, where we set things up that way; a more advanced would be another person physically with us in our bedchamber.

OK, I want you to go down on her for the fifth take!
Suzy's friend as an accomplice
It pushes my sub-buttons to have someone know about our kinky play. I have blogged about this before; it would just be a rush. I don't know if there is anyone that Suzy would feel comfortable about this, but it could look something like this. Suzy is going out for "drinks with the girls". Her "trusted friend" arrives first, superficially to carpool. Suzy calls me down and says something like "Paul, I was telling Jane about sex being for the woman's pleasure and that I sometimes control my cock by having it locked in a chastity cage. She was really curious about that, maybe thinking about locking up her hubby. Drop your shorts and show her your chastity device". I have a rush of excitement and embarrassment but do as she says and her friend examines my locked genitals. She makes some rather embarrassing comments about it, and then Suzy says, "I wanted her to have a trial run of the power a wife can have over her husband. So, I'm letting her keep the key to your chastity belt, but I haven't decided how long. You better be nice to BOTH of us now...maybe you should prepare her a cocktail..." This follows with a lot of teasing from both of them, as I must please them both to get unlocked. During the week, I get service-based texts from both dominate woman: I have to pick up a latte for Suzy and get Jane some eggs.  That would be hard to juggle!  Note that these bucket list items could also be combined. Could you imagine the "accomplice" scenario with the "naked butler" scenario? I could "service" both ladies with cocktails and massages while fully nude.
I’ve often done this with just my Princess.
My Princess knows that her having me be Affirmed in front of one of her friends is a major fantasy of mine. 
Real-life Devotional Sex is not the fantasy world of things like this photo happening every week, month, or even year. But what is really exciting about living Devotional Sex is that I know that one day this might actually happen to me.
I’ve written a fantasy story on my website where Sam has to Reveal in front of Susan’s friend Kate. If you like this photo you might also enjoy reading my story.
Will there be anything else ladies?

"See, he can't get hard when he is locked away in this device,
and I am going to give you the key to his cock.  I want you
to experience the power you can have over a horny male."
MFM threesome
I fantasize about playing with Suzy and another male a lot. There are probably endless varieties of how this might play out. I mainly fantasize about the other guy being quite different than me. Perhaps of a different ethnicity, a bigger cock, much younger, etc. For a while, my fantasy was mainly watching my wife have sex with another man; perhaps I am locked in the chastity belt during their session. I could play some role in this, such as going down on her as she sucked this new, foreign cock. Or sucking on her tits or kissing her while she was being penetrated. I guess that's the "classic" submissive MFM fantasy. But it recently dawned on me to have this fantasy played out in two other ways. One, a straight "my wife gets to play with two cocks" fantasy. Basically, me and the other guy take turns penetrating her. While it's "his" turn, my wife could suck or stroke my cock, but their is a constant horny tension between the two of us, and we are there to satisfy her. Another way, which I have been thinking about only recently, is that she dominates two submissive men. We are both there to satisfy her sexually, but she completely dominates us both. She teases and denies us both. She administers cock and ball torture on both submissive cocks.
I'd like a Suzy sandwich, please!
Suzy about to get a whole lot of attention!
FMF threesome
I know, what am I thinking? This is "every man's fantasy" that few could possibly obtain, let alone the "no other pussy" rule. Frankly, I do not believe I would do well in trying to sexually satisfy two women, and I doubt most men would. One cock just can't please two pussys, whereas in a MFMFMF threesome that Suzy might go for.
“He still hasn’t come — and he seriously lets you do this all the time?”
“He doesn’t let me do anything!”
Being a plaything to two women and submitting to both would be a rush.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Sexual Bucket List, Part I: Her Plaything

A few caveats: I am very horny right now, and I tried to put the moves on Suzy Thursday night, but she would have none of it.  I thought that I was going to get some play Friday night, and she intentionally, lovingly, and dominantly denied my orgasm, while she had two spectacular ones.  When I am horny, I fantasize a lot more and these fantasies are usually more extreme.  I haven't slept well, partly due to this horniness and partly because I was thinking of what to say in this post.
Some people think about, others formally write down and pursue a "bucket list".  These are things that you would like to do before you "kick the bucket".  Some might want to skydive, others throw out a pitch a major league game, things like that.  I have thought about this, and have some ideas in my head, but have never formally written such a list down.  Until now.  Here is my "sexual bucket list", things that I (in my enhanced, horny state) think that I would like to try with Suzy (and others....) sexually before I kick the bucket.  Here goes:

Naked butler
I believe I've blogged about this before, but the idea that I am naked for an extended period of time turns us both on.  Given we have children, this doesn't seem possible in the short term.  Suzy would somehow prevent access to my clothes.  Perhaps throw them in the basement, or lock them in a closet... something like that.  But I have no clothing available to me.  I cook, massage her, clean, sleep, have sex - all naked.  I can't wear clothes.  It follows that I wouldn't really be able to go far.  Perhaps she does make me "wear" something absurd, like an apron that doesn't cover anything, or something along those lines.  She leaves to go out but I must stay home, lounging around naked.  Of course, there is a lot of teasing and light erotic "humiliation" of my predicament.
Darling, would you care for a refreshment?
I wish to be "taken" by a strapon by Suzy.  We have a "feeldoe" strapless strapon, but when we bought it Suzy also bought a strap for additional support.  I don't think Suzy is against the idea of using it on me, but we haven't gotten to it yet.  Why does this appeal to me?  I enjoy most anal sensations, so I wonder if I would also enjoy this.  I like the role reversal, where she is fucking me.  That feeldoe has a fair amount of girth; I am not sure that I have "accommodated" something that big up there, so I a little nervous about it, frankly.  But watching my wife pound me with her jiggling chest just seems like a really big turn on.
I love the role reversal of a strapon!

Public sex
The risk of being caught just seems like such a big rush to me.  I don't know what the public indecency laws in my state are, and I certainly don't want to get arrested.  But I would like to be naked and have sex with Suzy, where she may be wearing a skirt and just lift it up for penetration, but it would be nonetheless obvious what we were doing, and I would be nude.  We could do the deed on our outside deck, with a beautiful view surrounding a beautiful act.  I am a nature lover!
The riskiness of public sex is a real turn-on for me!
Enforced male chastity
Well, this is something we do play with from time to time.  But one thing she hasn't done is actually placed the chastity belt on me by herself.  Don't get me wrong: this will hurt me.  Even with my substantial nerve endings for feedback, I still find myself in pain placing the device on.  I suppose it would look like this: I am tied up and she teases and denies me.  Then, she decides that for extra "security" she wants me to be locked.  She takes the chastity belt out, pinches and prods me, but eventually gets the device on, and my cock locked.  Chastity play is so much more intense when it comes from her; I love it when she clicks the lock herself, but this would be an added dimension in female dominance.
Locking my cock ~ completely on her own is a real turn on
'Forced' anything
I rather enjoy the concept of being 'forced' into doing things that I either truly don't want to do flat out or wouldn't publicly admit to wanting to do it.  An example of the former would be wearing women's clothes.  I am not interested in 'feminization' (not that there is anything wrong with those that do), but I would become excited if Suzy made me do it, as a punishment/humiliation.  Personally, I think I would look ridiculous.  But submitting to that would be arousing.  An example of the latter would be consuming my own semen.  My Suzy is pretty vocal about how disgusting she thinks me male juices are.  That's a reason why I don't get that many blowies.  I trust her, I bet my ejaculate does taste bad.  And, like other males, I have a strong desire for this when I am really horny (as I am now) but I also find it disgusting afterwords.  There are two ways I would like to be forced into doing this.  One would be for her to give me a ruined orgasm.  This keeps my horniness up, and I do believe - if she was sincere about forcing me to do it - that it would be a turn on for me.  The other would be if I ejaculate in her pussy and she then sits on my face and forces me to eat our combined juices.
(via kartograf)
Being "forced" to do things is also a turn on... the power exchange is a big rush

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Sunday night domination

I have not had a chance to blog about the ultimate domination experience my domme mistress treated me to on Sunday night.  Wowsers!  I will try to recount:

She was out late and said that she would text me with instructions on how to prepare.  She insinuated that pain would be involved - pain to my genitals to be specific.  The night wore on, and I was concerned that I wouldn't receive the instruction and consequently wouldn't get the session she had planned.  I was eagerly awaiting my instruction, and the subsequent domination session to follow.

She didn't shop, but she did Facebook
and check email while I lay helpless!
I finally got the text.  I was to have the bed restraints out, her favorite pink paddle, and be blindfolded.  She got home and made it clear that she was being creative and she didn't want any "suggestions" from me, or "topping from the bottom".  As she finished up in the bedroom, I put a full hood mask on (better than those flimsy blindfolds in my estimation), had our under the bed restraints available to restrain her slave, and got fully nude.  She really wasted no time, she came out and tied me up, helplessly spread-eagled on our bed.  What a vulnerable, delicious position for a slave like myself!  She then pulled something unexpected.  She went to the computer and teased me that she needed to check email and facebook.  I couldn't see anything and I couldn't move.  I didn't know if she was serious or not.  She clearly held all the cards.  She in fact did spend some time checking facebook.  It built my anticipation and reinforced that she was in charge.

I never saw my domme punish me, but
she could have looked like this!
When she finished that, she began the (delicious) torture.  As they say, the beatings will continue until morale improves.  All in all, she dominated me for probably a half hour.  My utter lack of control due to my inability to see and move and her control over my body put me into deep sub-space.  She used a variety of torturing devices: the whip, the paddle, and the wartenburg wheel.  What made it great was that she alternated and really kept me guessing.  Most of her abuse was directed at my genitals.  And she was not afraid to go hard, to push the limits of pain.  I love CBT sessions when I really can't do anything to lesson the pain.  I have to take it like a man.  But a man that is naked, and unable to defend himself.  According to her, I was erect and dripping precum the entire time.  I felt completely submissive.  I loved it.

Then, it was time for some sex play.  For her.  She lay down beside me and got out the Hitachi Magic Wand.  She really enjoyed herself.  I couldn't (voluntarily) feel her.  But she came hard.  Suzy doesn't really masturbate much on her own, to my knowledge.  But it is really hot when she does it in front of me, as a tease.  It screams "I am enjoying my awesome sexuality, but yours is owned by me".  *Sigh*  When she does do it, she really lets herself go and writhes in the pleasure.  She moans loud and she undulates her body.  It's like she is exaggerating her pleasure - for my submissive benefit.  It really does heighten the disparity between her and me.

What followed her orgasm was a bit confusing to me.  She coyly stated, "I can finally bask in my orgasm without you pestering me for pussy."  During our more typical sex sessions, after she climaxes, she wants to rest a bit before either giving me a handjob or letting me finish off in her pussy.  She was teasing me about my predicament, where I couldn't make any move.  I love verbal as well as physical teasing.  Well, she lay beside me, and started falling asleep.  My Queen can nod off at the drop of a hat.  I lay there, and without the adrenalin from the cock and ball torture, I started to actually get a bit cold.  I was naked without any covers.  Suzy appeared to be falling asleep, and implied that that was it for the night.  She teased me about me having to sleep tied up.  I was not sure if that was her plan, i.e., she wanted to deny me and force me to sleep nude and restrained, or if she was teasing and would resume the play.  I was really confused.  I honestly thought that was going to happen.  I just was hoping that whatever she decided was deliberate, as opposed to "oops, I fell asleep, sorry about that".  The thought of her doing that, forcing me to sleep that way, without orgasm was staring to excite me, except I really was getting genuinely cold.  She kind of shook out of her sleep and then chastise me a bit (because I was telling her that it was OK), and then unfastened me and instructed that I was to come in her pussy.

I was really very horny and wanted to come.  I was nervous though because I usually have very poor stamina when I am that horny.  She told me to go fetch the paddle as she wanted to spank my ass as I penetrated her.  I had a bit more stamina than I thought I would, but still came quickly.  It was a fantastic orgasm.  I love it.  I had to clean up the sex toys and got straight to bed, where she slipped into her flannel PJs (I am not fond of flannel!) and we cuddled each other to sleep.

This is kind of close to what it was like, except I was blindfolded and instead of the wine it was the
computer.  Ah, the disparity of female and male roles!  Puts me in my sub-space!

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Why did it take me so long to blog about this?  Life has been hectic, at work and at home.  I often blog in the morning, which is usually the only time I have some peace and quiet.  We both wake up around the same time, and I drink coffee and try to do some blogging while she gets ready.  I will then prep her breakfast and our hectic day begins!  I have also been a bit under the weather and very fatigued at night.

After this session, she, as usual, didn't want to talk about it.  I wish I knew: can this kind of play become our normal sex play?  Or does she need to be "inspired" to dominate me like that?  I think she honestly enjoyed it.  Being tied up is probably my favorite kink, but we don't do it that much.  I love the surrender, the trust involved, and leaving my fate in her (dominant) hands.  We shall see...