|Queen Suzy has hit the pause button on our FLR, although there seem to be elements of her domination of me that remain... a hint of things to come?|
My Queen confirmed that we are on an FLR "break". I don't know what that means entirely, but she has confirmed that she has hit the pause button and that she won't resume it until she reads Uniquely Rika and has some time to think about tailoring it to her needs. My guess is that could spill well into September. In the mean time, she has shown (see prior posts) that she can/will/enjoys dominating me sexually.
I am a little frightened: if this is an FLR on hold, what happens when the tigress is fully unleashed?!?! I confess that when I read her post about finding the right punishment for me, I was both aroused and frightened. The idea of her devising a torture that I won't enjoy is hard for me to get my head around. I would assume that such a punishment would involve me submitting to her in some way (i.e., allowing her to tie me up, assuming a position, etc.); which frankly would arouse me. If you recall this post, arousal is claimed to increase pain tolerance. So logically, if she administers a torture on me, designed so that I don't like it, I will be accepting of additional pain and she will be aggressively trying to cause me pain to teach me a lesson. This is not looking good for me!
|I'm sure the tigress will be back!|
In spite of being on a break, there have been elements of male submission in our day-to-day lives. When we have a moment alone, she will quickly knee me in the balls or swat at my groin. I have made her breakfast almost every day, and she is quite verbal about pointing out that I need to get a move on so that she can eat to meet her daily routine. When her sister "Debi" was here, I had made some breakfast for myself, and she said something like "oh, thanks for making me breakfast; what are YOU going to eat?" That put me into deep subspace. As I have written about before, I have an excitement/scared view of others' being let in my submission to Suzy. And she said this right in front of Debi. She said she was just kidding, but I gave it up to her and then "re-made" my own breakfast. Suzy NEVER does anything sexual in the mornings, and this was just so unexpected and dominate that it really turned me on. I'm sure I became erect right away. Another thing she has been doing lately is telling me what I can eat. I try to follow a "low carb" diet and am really trying to get some 6-pack abs. Both yesterday and today, Suzy criticized me for eating something I shouldn't have - publicly. While she did the opposite. I do get aroused by her telling me to make her a drink. So far, my submission has mainly been in the bedroom. I am starting to wonder if this apparent trend will continue.
Our sex frequency has gone way down, but she has taken some elements of dominating me. That makes me think she enjoys that. I get a huge rush of excitement being naked before her, exposing my obvious excitement for and to her. I have been fantasizing a lot about having some sex play outside in our backyard; me naked, her clothed.
* * * * *I have been away from the blogging world for a while. Our household has been turned upside down as a result of the recent changes in employment and school routines resuming. Today was the first day in a while that I have checked out my usual blogs and I must say that I am quite aroused right now. I hope that we can have some "playtime" tonight.
While I respect Suzy's thought process around discovering the elements of FLR that she wants, and dominating me per her needs, I crave to submit to her. I want her to spank me SOOOO bad. I hope that I can be patient and allow our FLR to run its course - her way!