Suzy had been on her period, and I asked her if she was back "in commission" (as opposed to being "out of commission", lol). She said that she had "used her finger, just like you do", meaning, she had masturbated while we were apart. I was instantly aroused at the thought of her taking matters into her own hands. Several reasons:
- the thought of her masturbating is just hot to me.
- the few times that she does masturbate (at least that she lets me in on), it's usually in the shower, with the water pressure over her clitoris bringing her to orgasm; I don't think she fingers her clit very often at all.
- the "double standard": it is a bit of a paradox that she gets visibly angry at the thought of me jerking off but her masturbating is very hot to me. One of my first posts (not yet completed and published) is on the thoughts around this "double standard". I don't know if I will ever come to terms with this, but it is just something that arouses me. Male masturbation seems messy and dirty and horribly wrong; but a woman masturbating seems sensual, beautiful, clean, and natural.
|Why does female masturbation seem so exciting and male masturbation seem so gross?|
* * * * *I am glad that she told me about it. I guess I enjoy that she is a sexual person and she is not afraid to address her sexual needs. I don't think she will, but I would really like it if she talked to me more about it. I don't finger her that often, but I know that - apart from her vibrators, which are automatic in getting her to the promised land - it is usually one of the more reliable ways to get her to climax, but it is a fair amount of work. Sometimes I really have to work it to make sure she is lubricated. But once properly wet, I can usually get her there. It seems like a more reliable way for her to come than cunnilingus. I would really like to watch her to this, to gauge her response and better guide my technique when I finger her. Have I mentioned I love female orgasms?