Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Suzy's Choice: A chaste hubby

The end of my 2010 work responsibilities and the end of Suzy's period dovetailed nicely together.  That is to say, after a fairly intense last week of work concluded, her pussy was ready for action.  Suzy had a choice: for the week I had off work, we could have a honeymoon-like sex fest or she could deny me orgasm.  She chose the latter.  I have a hard time focusing at work when I am being teased and denied.  I guess Suzy chose this as an opportune time to push my limits.

I have been orgasm-free for a week now, with three more days to go.  When we first started out with trying male orgasm denial, I kept track of our orgasms in a spreadsheet (I'm kind of a nerd).  Over a several month period, she had about 4 orgasms per every one I had.  I think we've had two streaks where she had seven consecutive orgasms and then I got one.  I have lost track of how many she's had during this denial period, but my guess is she's had 5 so far.  I think it would be fun to round it off to ten ~ 5 in three days is definitely doable.  She is going to allow me to come on the 1st, and I presume that means shortly after midnight, but she hasn't really said much about her plans.

She has teased me most days of this denial period.  Last night didn't seem to include any sex play, but she surprised me by coming to bed in a sexy outfit.  I was mostly asleep at this point, but I sensed she wanted some passionate action and woke up and took my clothes off almost instantly.  We kissed with lust and she told me she wanted my cock in her.  She gave me some great foreplay with her hands, and I was rock hard and ready to penetrate her.  I got out her hand held vibrator and figured that I should give her a head start before insertion.  She made it clear that she did not want me to come and that I needed to have the discipline to hold off until she climaxed.  Her pussy was so wet and inviting by the time I inserted.  She directed me how I was to penetrate: slow and deep, she said several times.  She came pretty quickly and it seemed like an intense orgasm, although we didn't really discuss it much.  Although she didn't say it explicitly, I almost sensed that she was thinking "good boy, you used our cock exactly the way I wanted it".

I withdrew my cock because I was fairly close to coming.  After a minute, I penetrated her again, mainly just to sense her wetness and maintain my erection for a little bit longer.  She warned me not to come and then I withdrew it and caressed her body.  She allowed me to sleep nude and we cuddled all night and all morning.  Awesome!

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I am going bonkers with horniness.  I don't think I can handle this during a normal work schedule.  I'm sure I've been without orgasm for a week and a half before, but not with this intense teasing.  I really like the affection and the playfulness that Suzy is giving in this sex play.  For me, the most intense submissive tease and denial feelings - by far - come from when she has allowed me to penetrate her and then either she tells me to stop or she tells me that I must not ejaculate.  Getting her juices all over my cock and being just seconds from dropping my load deep inside her is very intense.  I also really liked how she directed how I thrust in her.  Confidence is so very sexy.  Suzy seems to be really embracing her sexuality and asserting what she wants.  Hot stuff!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Merry Christmas

I hope you have a blessed Christmas.  I have.

Let's see.... what did I receive from Suzy this year?  Blue Balls!

Suzy is currently on her period, and her monthly visitor should be gone any day now.  Normally, our sex play decreases markedly during her period.  Not this time!  We had some really hot play on Wednesday.  We did a lot of "sexting" leading up to it.  Hot texts really stoke the fires of passion with us.  At any event, she gave me a satisfying blowjob.  She has made it clear to me that I am not to ejaculate in her mouth (I don't want to know what manner of evil awaits me if I did) and oral sex is the most intense stimulation for me.  I didn't last very long and I told her I was about to blow.  She finished me off in an unusual way... she masturbated me with her breasts and as I was sailing to my orgasm, she started flicking my balls.  That added stimulation sent me over the edge.  We finished the session with the Hitachi Magic Wand giving her clit stimulation through her pad.  What was really noteworthy about this session is how she directed the activities.  I caressed her breasts a lot, more than I would have done so on my own.  She just wanted that stimulation and it was really doing it for her.  I would have pulled away much sooner to focus on her orgasm.  She really ran the show, sexually speaking, and it was hot.

Little did I know that was my last orgasm of 2010.  During a subsequent play session she hinted that I was going to be denied for the rest of the year.  That is 1.5 weeks!  Sure, I have been without orgasm that long probably a lot.  In fact, our last denial period was about the same length, although for about a week there was no sex at all.  This is shaping up to be a week and a half of tease and denial.

The first session was noteworthy in that she stated she just wanted to "cuddle".  The last time I got into trouble with our "FLR" was the same scenario.  Basically, I really wanted her to orgasm and she didn't want any sex play... and I didn't handle that conflict well.  This time, I accepted that she was in charge and just cuddled, working myself up a bit for an erection.  I think she has almost reached "fetish" status in that she loves to feel my erection against her.  One thing lead to another, and she seemed to change her mind about sex.  She let me play with her breasts and we kissed a lot.  She busted my balls rather harshly.  She came once with the vibe and then we called it a night, my erection against her as she fell asleep.

We had another sex session last night that involved some ball torture, "sling-shoting" my cock (I have a fairly steeply angled erection, and she pulls it back the other way towards my balls and lets go.. it snaps back fairly rigorously), and anal stimulation.  She spent a lot of time stimulating my anal area (anyone have a pleasant name for that???), which really felt great.  Then we enjoyed another female orgasm and went to bed.  She reiterated my orgasm denial period would last the rest of this year.
I have seen this posted on a few male chastity blogs... seems appropriate for us right now!

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I enjoy blogging and it seems to open up a pretty good communication channel between Suzy and myself.  Suzy did enjoy my "cleaning hunk" video and I suspect it will make its rounds amongst her ladies group.  She said she was close to making a comment on it but didn't.  I would like her to comment every once and a while or maybe made a guest post.  We shall see.

I am cognizant that I can be a little long winded sometimes and I do try to keep my posts short.  I'm just not always successful.  There have been a lot of things going on, and my mind is going bonkers on possible posting material.  Thanks for reading, and I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a blessed New Year!  Cheers!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Good clean fun (eye candy for Suzy)

Suzy and I regularly watch Desperate Housewives together.  It's a funny show even though some of the plot lines can be pretty outrageous.  It can be fairly sexy too, which we enjoy.  Sunday night is usually a "play" night and she expects me to rub her feet and back the entire show.  When we first started "playing" with FLR, she said she could not order me around.  However, our DH nights are as close as it gets.  She has no problem demanding that I make her a drink and I am expected to get down in feet rubbing position.  For a subhub, this is pretty exciting.

One of the storylines had involved Susan (Teri Hatcher) making some extra money by video "cleaning" in sexy lingerie.  She was making pretty good money at this but as with everything for her character, it all fell apart soon enough.  At any rate, a commenter on my blog pointed me towards this video of "The cleaning hunk".  This is a role reversal from Susan's character and I thought Suzy would get a kick out of it.


This short clip has a fair amount of my submissive fantasies wrapped in it:
  • It is close to a clothed female naked male (CFNM) situation; I am always naked and she often has some clothing on when we play.  As a matter of fact, she has specifically talked about me doing more things naked if we have the opportunity (which we might not, since we will have a full nest for quite some time).
  • The "hunk" is pretty much doing as she says.
  • I am aroused by Suzy looking at other men.  She went with a group of her lady friends for a few days in "sin city" and I was really turned on by the fact that she might go to a male strip club.  I sometimes fantasize about going to a strip club and paying for a lap dance.  I really wonder what her reaction would be if she had a stud waving his package around in her "lap".  Would she get aroused?  Would she be embarrassed?
  • I am not interested in wearing emasculating clothes, but the underwear the "hunk" wears is sexy and I enjoy wearing that sort of underwear when we are "playing".  I posted on underwear before, and my main deal are boxers but wearing something special as we play adds to my arousal.
 At any rate, I hope Suzy gets a laugh out of this clip.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Pushing my limits

We had a great day yesterday.  Suzy and I did a lot of flirting and "sexting" throughout the day.  I had mentioned that I hadn't cum since we had sex last Saturday and that I was super horny.  As we were prepping for dinner, she teased me quite a bit.  She then countered that it hadn't been that long, and that we had sex on Monday, so that it hadn't been a full week yet (darn, why does she always remember stuff that she can hold against me?).  She then started talking about denying me orgasm (in spite of or maybe because I kept telling her how horny I was), and I thought it was just teasing talk.  Boy was I wrong!

I massaged her back for about a half an hour while she was checking her various emails and facebook.  She seemed aroused by it and asked me to take her bra off and she let me play with her D-cup breasts quite a bit.  I don't always get free access like that, so I just went with it.  At one point, I stopped to brush my teeth (my motives were pure - I wanted to kiss her!) but she said, "where are you going... get back here and keep rubbing".  Wow.  I love that kind of dominance!  That was a harbinger for things to come!  Or not come, in my case!

We watched our weekly show and she received a foot rub and a back rub.  We went back up stairs and started our play time.  I was wearing an easily removable underwear (Velcro sides) and she had told me earlier I could get out some toys and suggest - but she was in no way obligated to perform - some play session.  I bought a couple of new toys from the local adult store, and was hoping to try them.  We hadn't had kinky sex in a while, so I was also hoping for that.  I was NOT disappointed.

She started out naked, and I caressed her.  She complained that my cock wasn't hard enough for her, so I rubbed it against her.  We kissed a lot, and she let me suck her nipples.  I don't always get nipple action, but when I do, she gets real horny real fast.  I got out the Hitachi Magic Wand and pressed it against her clit, and I fingered her G-spot.  She came pretty fast.  I guess she was horny from all the foreplay she received.

She then went on to stimulating me.  She started off slow, with some light ball slapping and teasing my cock.  We did a lot this session, so I am trying to be brief.  She asked me about denying me orgasm, if that was OK.  I said that it was up to her.  She seemed pretty intent on denial.  If it's one thing I'm learning, it's to better listen to her needs and go with it.  She could have changed her mind, but it sure seemed like ejaculation was not in the cards.
No cock stimulation, no male orgasms for submissive hubby!
She really dominated me.  What was different than normal was her laser-like focus on my balls.  She really didn't play with my cock that much.  I don't remember her jerking it at all, actually.  She just wanted to explore "ball busting" last night, and she was Magellan.  After a while, I asked her if I could give her a second orgasm.  She said it was ok, so I went with it.  What was pretty cool was that, even though I hadn't stimulated her much during the extensive ball-busting, her pussy was really wet.  Awesomely wet.  I inferred that meant that she was turned on by busting my nuts.  She said she was.
I told Suzy that it felt like she was treating my balls as a pinata.  Nothing came out last night, though!  LOL!
She had her second orgasm and it seemed the best of the session - there's more!  Ha! I messaged her a bit after her climax.  It was clear at this point that she didn't want me to come tonight.  I was turned on by the dominance and asked her why.  She indicated that she likes me to think about her and that she wanted more service from me.  I asked about using my CB-6000 chastity cage; If I wasn't going to come, I wanted some help.  I enjoy being "locked up" but she really prefers cock-discipline, and really really likes to see, feel and now that I am erect.  It doesn't appear that use of the chastity cage is in my future.  I suspect that when she goes to her friend's 40th B-day party this summer (she will be out of state), that she will want me locked to ensure I don't masturbate.  We'll see.

The real intense domination happened next.  I bought a "wheel" from the adult store (see photo) and I really wanted to try it... I had no idea what to expect.  She was cold, so she got her pajamas on (I was still naked and had my legs spread wide to accept the abuse of my balls) and said she would give it a try.  She used really light pressure at first.  Those spikes are pointy!!!  The skin on the cock shaft is very thin and it was definitely the most sensitive.  Even a light touch was pretty intense.  My scrotum and perineum areas were much thicker and she could "dig in" on those.  Thankfully, I had shaved my balls that morning.  She teased me that it made it easier to torture them.
The Wartenburg Wheel.  Used to test nerve responses by health care workers; used by Suzy to torture my balls
She did a ton of ball torture.  She would alternate the wheel with pretty sharp ball slaps.  It was intense.  One thing I enjoy as a sub is not knowing what type of stimulation, where, and when it is coming.  It really kicks the intensity up a notch.  After playing with the wheel, she dominated me by doing a double ball slap.  She would lightly crush my balls by slapping up with one hand and down with the other.  It was freaking intense!  That is probably the most pain she has dealt me.  I was yelping a bit, to the extent that she said she needed to gag me.  Fortunately, I have a gag and it has been a longtime fantasy to allow her to, with minimal feedback from me, to just judge for herself what kind of pain I can take.  She didn't allow me to do that, but said possibly tonight because she didn't want to hear my complaining.  I know, there is a dogma around using "safe words" but I don't think she will go too far and I am pretty sure I can handle it... we ARE married after all.  She has an interest in keeping my genitals healthy for the next beating.

It is pretty hot when after receiving two orgasms herself, and basically just man-handling my balls with little cock stimulation when my wife says "we're almost done here".  I asked her if she would let me give her a third orgasm, and much to my delight, she did.  She almost always stops at 2.  I wonder why she allowed it.  Was it that the last ball busting session had turned her on enough for her to want to come again?  Not sure, but I really like her climaxes!  I think one of the more submissive parts of a session are when the subhub gets out the instruments of torture and then at the end when he puts them away, with the unresolved horniness from the session.  She indicated how much she enjoyed the play and that it's possible we could do it again tonight.  I realize this is a long post, but a lot happened last night!
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Found this quote from what I regard as a pretty good sex book.  It resonates with me:

"People who enjoy light bondage enjoy being rendered passive.  They have no choice but to enjoy what a partner is doing to them.  They don't have to worry about being a "good" partner who provides pleasure in return.  Performance anxiety is virtually eliminated.  This can especially appeal to someone who has to be in charge and in control the rest of the time."

"Guide to Getting it on!", 2007 edition, pages 498-499

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Discussion about a threesome (MMF)

At our date night a couple of weeks ago, Suzy asked me about my fantasy of her sleeping with another man.  I first read about "cuckolding" in some of the female dominant websites and it arouses me a lot.  I sent her an email about this (very freeing to be honest with her, as there was a period of time when I would just hold that sort of thing in) and we discussed it briefly once before.  She apparently read a blog about a couple going through the process of selecting a "boyfriend" for the wife.  I was caught by her tone.  She had a smile when she talked about it.  I could be wrong about this, but I interpreted her tone as being kind of excited about the prospect but embarrassed and nervous too - kind of like when a parent asks you if you want something extravagant for a present and you really do want it but you think that by virtue of claiming that as a desire, you are being selfish and irresponsible.  Anyway, that's how I interpreted her tone.
Suzy is not OK with a FMF threesome; she seems intrigued with adding another man to the mix
We talked about it for a bit, she asked why I wouldn't get jealous if another man slept with her.  I don't think I could handle her "going on a date" alone with another man; rather, I would like to be present and participate.  It would be up to her if I would penetrate her or orgasm - but she definitely would!  When I fantasize about this, I think of me as being an assistant to the sex between my wife and the "friend with benefits".  I go down on her, and basically do all the foreplay while she plays with a foreign cock, and as I am exciting her orally, she places a condom on the dick and says something like "ok, I'm ready for him to fuck me now".  As he penetrates her and I move to stimulating her breasts, kissing her, maybe even fingering her clit.  Perhaps after the male orgasm, I would go and get them a drink and then massage Suzy while she is in post-orgasmic bliss.

A MMF threesome would be all about Suzy's pleasure
She asked what if she "falls in love" with this partner.  That would scare the crap out of me, frankly.  But, in my mind's eye, we would choose someone with a minimal possibility of that.  I envision this being a college student, which would amount to the "stud" being nearly half her age.  Perhaps a different ethnicity and a bigger cock than mine.  It would excite me to see her exploring another penis.  I would imagine she would feel a surge of female power in knowing that she was the source of arousal for two men.  She feels that way with my erections, let alone a "young stud"simultaneously.  I would love to watch Suzy having sex.  I witness her orgasms frequently, but when I am penetrating her, I usually only get one view and I have never actually seen myself ejaculate.  I usually have my eyes closed.
Don't get me wrong, I realize the many pitfalls that could occur.  This seems like it's "just a fantasy" and she's teased me verbally about it during sex sessions.

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We have not done anything sexual in a week.  As the saying goes, "life gets in the way" sometimes and we've still had some lingering conflicts to resolve.  I have been a good sub and not masturbated, and I haven't had a good solid erection since our last session.  As I said in a prior post, that actually causes some amount of depression.  Even thought I crave to be dominated and (occasionally) denied, I believe I need the sexual play to feel fulfilled.  I know a week doesn't sound like much, but it's been agony for me.  I was going to lock myself up over the weekend (there was a low likelihood of sex Friday and Saturday anyway), but I really didn't get a sense that Suzy was all that interested in being a "keyholder".

Partly because of our lack of play, I had a lot of fantasies about picking her "stud" for play.  I will probably email it to her and see what feedback she has.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Doctor Denial

Our relationship has been mostly on the upswing lately.  There is a fair amount of complication.  To recap: my wife has stated that she does not want to "take the lead anymore".  I don't know exactly what that means.  I have really enjoyed her being "in charge" in the bedroom.  Here and there, she has alluded to various activities we did that were related to her being in charge.  She has demanded that I give her foot massages; she suggested that if I could not prevent masturbating, that I should lock up in my chastity cage; she has made references to our first "chastity game" with dice; and she has discussed openly that she should spank me.  Very arousing for a submissive husband!

Our sex activity lately has been pretty non-kinky.  Mainly using a vibe on her for an orgasm, and then missionary sex.  Unfortunately, no multiple O's for her; she just doesn't seem that interested.

I have not performed cunnilingus on my wife in a really really long time.  Oral sex is my favorite sex act.  I give a lot more than I receive.  I never feel more virile and manly than when I bring her to orgasm orally.  No batteries, or toys.  Just a man and his tongue making love to her clitoris while she lays back and enjoys.  Awesome.

She has not shaved her pubes in a while; she has quite a bush right now.  I have a difficult time going down on her when she isn't at least trimmed.  I got up the nerve to ask her about it, and she said that she has a doctor appointment this week, and that she wanted to "let it go".  She also was clear that for her pussy exam, she did not want the health care provider examining any remnants of my seed.  Yes, I am being denied sex for the sake of her doctor!  What a bummer!  That's not sexy denial, that's denial for the sake of someone else.  Boo!
Pubic hair is not fun while going down...
I realize that I can't change her mind on this.  Hopefully, I will get a nice trimmed or shaved pussy to dive into shortly after the appointment is over.  I can't wait...
What a bummer!  Pubic hair style is based on not looking "abnormal" for the doctor!