Saturday, August 18, 2018

30 Day Summer Denial

Suzy planned a romantic weekend for us last weekend.  Her prior denial of me seems to have been to save up my mojo for this special weekend.  We got upgraded to a suite (sweet!) with a really nice sunset view; we watched the sunset with some bubbly.  We had fun, we each had an orgasm and had some great food and wine.

Right after that, Suzy said that she wanted me to wait 30 days before my next orgasm.  So, that would make it September 10.  It's weird being in the middle of the month thinking that I've had my last orgasm for the month; in fact, I think I will only have had a single orgasm in the month of August.  I may have to start updating the Orgasm Tracker again.

What's a little frustrating in this denial period is that I've not got to experience Suzy's orgasms.  I'm really wanting to go down on her but she's been blowing me off (LOL) and even saying she doesn't want to come.  What!?

On Monday, she did give me a good tease and denial session, stroking my hard cock for a bit, then saying it's time for bed, and her enjoying my hardness against her ass.  On Tuesday, she sorta did an erection check but didn't really stroke me.  And really nothing since then.  So I'm going off the charts horny at this time.  I'm getting plenty of erections thinking about having some play time, and the generous amount of cuddling we're doing.  Suzy's been pretty open to me playing with her D-cup boobs and grabbing her ass and playing with her clothed pussy. 

So, I'm on Day 7 of orgasm denial and my balls do feel full and I'm dripping pre-cum periodically.  I guess you could say, I've had some ups and downs.

Since revving up tease and denial recently, Suzy has asked me a lot: what are you thinking?  I feel that I'm a starving lion and she's a ribeye!  That's what I'm thinking!  Well, I do have a lot of fantasies lately, perhaps the subject of another post.

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What I haven't told Suzy yet is that there is an outside chance that I will have a business travel on Sept 10.  It's somewhat optional, if I didn't want to travel, I could probably be conferenced in, but it's probably better visibility if I go.  I'll probably know on Monday.  Should I go, I'm curious to know how that plays into the dynamic.

Friday, August 10, 2018

"I want you to wait longer"; Meddling kids


We had a fun session last night. Suzy asked me if I masturbated because she didn't feel my erection against her the night before. I hadn't and I was horny as fuck! In fact, I haven't masturbated in months! Horny! I then asked her when was the last time SHE masturbated. She then said that she masturbated in the shower about once a week. I personally think wife masturbation is hot, and when it's more or less forbidden by me, makes it even hotter.  Ah, the "double standard" at work again!

I stripped her jeans/panties off and began teasing her pussy/inner thighs; she said, "I'm not ready for oral"; I said, "no, just giving you some foreplay" to which she said, "foreplay?  what is that?".  She's always a kidder.  

Just after she came, a kid knocked on our door. Good thing she had finished her orgasm! When we were finally able to get back together again, she asked me if I had condoms, to which I sorta fumbled the response (basically I was torn between the loudness of intercourse considering a kid was in the room next door fully awake and the fact that I was so mind-bogglingly horny that I would not last that long).  She later told me that she changed her mind anyway, saying, "I want you to wait longer". She then said she'd like a second orgasm, so I gave her another. I miss the days of multiple female orgasms, and with explicit male denial, it makes me even hotter!  She came a second time, then, LOL, our oldest kid (who doesn't even live with us!) knocked on the door!

Those meddling kids!  When are we gonna be empty nesters?!

Anyway, after dry-humping (which I admitted is sorta pathetic) her for a while with plenty of spilt pre-cum, she gave me some good tease and denial and some light ball smacking. Nothing too serious/intense but she grabbed and played with the loose skin on my scrotum which made my whole package, including my hard cock move around. I love it when my genitals are like a plaything to her! She teased me about how long I might have to wait, I told her how hot it is when she comes, and the more she orgasms the happier I am. 

Fully nude, I then "helped" her dress for bed.  I've blogged about this before, but it really turns me on.  It feels like a master/slave kinda thing (she's a grown woman, she doesn't *need* help to get dressed!) but it feels like I'm sealing my own fate of being denied, if that makes sense.  And during our session there were a few times where I was walking around with my erection which is really an erotic feeling for me.  It sorta ended with us being in the bathroom and me seeing her in her PJs doing her makeup removal/bedtime routine while I was there naked and hard.

Sure, I'm horny, but I got my tease and denial and CFNM kink in big time!

Funny, even though I washed my hands I can still smell her pussy scent faintly. Isn't that hot! Is that normal?!

I'm in love!


Saturday, July 28, 2018

Rules of Engagement

As you may recall, Suzy and I had some pretty sexy times with Desperate Housewives.  We are currently binge-watching the sitcom, "Rules of Engagement".  Bear in mind, I don't watch TV much (except sports and whatever's visually interesting when I'm on the treadmill) so I had never even heard of the show until I came across it on Netflix.

We just started Season 4.  Sex is a pretty common topic on the show, thus my post.  If you are not aware, it involves these main characters:

Audrey/Jeff
Long term married couple that can't conceive.  Frequently make jokes about being married for "so long" (only 13 years!  Newbies!).  They are both professionals and seem to really love each other.  Jeff is a bit of a knucklehead and Audrey is super forgiving and loving to him.  According to her, sex is "fine" but they are generally discrete.  They like to make fun of Jennifer/Adam because they have no idea what they're in for (in married life), and make fun of Russell because he's small and has girly hair, and is a male slut and a bit of a bad human being.

Jennifer/Adam
Both professionals and working towards their eventual wedding.  They have sex all the time (they're engaged!) and sleep naked.  Adam was raised by hippies and is a bit naive and effeminate at times.  Jennifer likes to do girly things like shop and watch romantic vampire movies.  They are super open about talking about sex and don't really keep anything secret.  They like to make fun of Audrey/Jeff because they are "old" and Russell because he's a male slut and a bit of a bad human being.

Russell
Is a "player" that openly criticizes the whole concept of marriage and swears to being e a bachelor for the rest of his life. Has no morals, really. He brags about how much sex he gets, and makes fun of the other couples as having a boring lifestyle.  He criticizes Audrey/Jeff for being so boring and old and not having as much sex as him, and makes fun of Jennifer/Adam for their decision to get married, and the inevitability of becoming like Audrey/Jeff.

At any rate, a lot of the plots center on sex.  Which I like.  Lots of stereotyping.

Comparing to Desperate Housewives, the cast/sets aren't as attractive and apart from Russell's willingness to say anything to get any female in bed, they don't deceive one another like in DH.  DH was known for its deception, cheating, etc.  This is more about making fun of what each other is missing, in all their iterations of being "engaged".

We have several seasons to go, and I look forward to seeing them with Suzy.  Hoping that our binge watching leads to binge sex.  And BTW, lover, please let me know if you are reading the blog and what you think!

Monday, July 9, 2018

Weekend Denial

Suzy and I had a romantic weekend up North.  We were able to check in early Saturday; when we got to the room, we moved our luggage up, then I rested a few minutes on the bed.  She went into the restroom, I got the Hitachi out and wanted it to be ready to go for when we played.  She lay on the bed and then seemed to be playful so I used the Hitachi on her; it didn't reach and I asked her to move and she pretended to protest.  I realized there was another outlet closer, so I quickly made my move to shift over to that one, and sorta reached between her legs (she was laying on her stomach).  She didn't protest any more, it had been a little while (too long!) since her last orgasm and she seemed to be enjoying it.  She kept getting kinda close, then I reached underneath her to add a little more pressure to her clit.  She came HARD.  One of her patented spectacular orgasms.  I made an innocent little comment that it had been too long, and as usual she sorta acknowledged how pleasurable it was and after a bit of "basking" got up and said let's go explore.

Long story short, we had a really good time together, but we drank much more than normal.  We had a fantastic dinner, eating too much, frankly, and then we went to some wine/beer bar with a musician.  That's where I should have stopped, but instead had a a few more beers and Suzy had another wine or two.  Well, it was basically too much.  We walked back to the hotel and played but Suzy later said she was not feeling good.  I put a condom on but had erection issues.  She came a second time and we basically just passed out together.

The next morning we had a CFNM cuddle fest.  She was wearing a sexy top from my alma mater; the reason why it's sexy is because it has a huge amount of access to her breasts.  I groped and grabbed her for hours.  She wasn't feeling well, and didn't want to play again.  However, I had some quality naked time with her, almost always being erect or at least semi erect.  I think she thinks my kink is very weird sometimes, but it's clearly something I enjoy and she seems ok with playing along with it; she would peak in to watch me shower, ask me to soap up my cock and balls, etc.  We've been talking a bit more about retirement and the topic naturally went to how often I'd be naked when that finally happens.  She seems pretty ok with it, for now.

Interestingly, on our way back, I brought up sex a few times and she quickly changed subjects.  She didn't seem to notice that I hadn't had an orgasm.  She sorta promised that we would play Sunday night, but I got cock blocked by a visitor, so I just went to bed horny again.  Maybe tonight.  I have a huge load, and very blue balls right now.

I love Suzy.

Friday, July 6, 2018

Being told what to do

I'm very different in the bedroom with Suzy than in the real world.  I've always HATED being told what to do, mainly because it belittles me and makes me feel unvalued for my creativity.

However, in the bedroom, I love it.  I guess this is yet another example of the role reversal that turns me on so much.  Two examples over the past week:

1. "You better pack condoms for our vacation"
Most of our sex lately has been handjobs or condom wearing sex.  Interestingly, my post "Condom Domination" is one of my all time most popular posts.  Long story short, I had my vasectomy well over ten years ago, and Suzy takes oral BC, so wearing condoms is strictly for convenience (for her) and not for birth control reasons.  Throughout our marriage, she has been reluctant for me to ejaculate inside her when we are not in our own bed.  Examples I can think of include when we had sex in our van, sex at her parents' house, and sex in hotels.

During our vacation sex last week, I entered her bareback and Suzy reminded me to put a condom on.  So she was quite serious about enforcing this, essentially telling me to go get a condom.  I find that hot.  Even though my unwrapped insertions were brief, they did act to help with the foreplay, getting her ready for her orgasm.  She would then take the vibrator as I went to fetch the condom and begin her journey towards orgasm, while I rolled it on, then performed as expected, see below.

2. Telling me how to fuck her
It's no secret to longtime readers that Suzy's best orgasms happen with my cock or my finger inside her pussy with a vibrator on her clit.  I recently postulated to her that it seems similar to my handjob orgasms during which she strokes my cock as well as stimulates my balls.  That additional stimulation usually makes my own orgasms that much more powerful.  At any rate, I figure there's an analogy there.

Alas, I know exactly how she likes to orgasm.  She likes my cock or finger to SLOWLY stimulate the upper wall of her pussy with a strong vibrator (Hitachi) on her clitoris with a lot of pressure.  She's pretty direct to me, "SLOW"!  Right before the moment of truth, when her orgasm is inevitable, she likes the movement to be stopped completely while her pussy clenches down on the penetrating object in a rhythmic manner.  It's so sexy to feel (easier with my finger than my cock) and sometimes I have watched these sexy female contractions.

My outside the bedroom self would be annoyed at her telling me what I already know, how she climaxes best.  However, I find it so sexy when she tells me what to do.  It's so hot having a wife that likes to orgasm, knows her body well enough to come the hardest, and has the confidence to express (demand?) it to her partner.

Monday, July 2, 2018

Father's Day CFNM Tease and Denial

It was after midnight and Suzy came out to me being fully nude.  We messed around a bit and I told her that I wanted to hear her come.  So I put the vibe on her pussy, while she was fully in her PJs.  She came within seconds.  I talked to her about how much I enjoy watching her come and I'd like her to have a second orgasm.  She sorta joked about not being in shape, that her abs can't handle another orgasm, then we talked about doing some orgasm "training" to get her abs back into shape.  All fairly light-hearted pillow talk.

Then she casually asks if I want inside her pussy or a handjob.  She's been a bit more vocal lately about wanting me to wear condoms to contain the mess of my orgasm, especially that on our vacation, I will need to pack condoms (she in particular prefers that I use condoms when we are away from home).  She starts stroking me, and I get the most pleasurable erection with my legs spread wide (almost like an OB GYN type of pose) and she alternates stroking me with smacking my balls.  Lights were on, and most of the time she was either looking at my erection or looking right into my eyes.  I wasn't really getting that close to orgasm, since she was pausing to smack my balls fairly frequently.  It was like an extended foreplay session where I got my CFNM fetish fully satisfied. She then decided that she didn't want me to come.  She said in a sexy, playful way, that she likes the attention she gets from me when I don't come and that maybe I won't be allowed to come until our vacation.  It was hot and sexy, reminding me of our femdom days where sex was all about the wife's pleasure.  I was getting pretty excited.

We talked a bit more about how erotic it is when she comes.  She said that she thinks she looks ridiculous when she comes, that she loses all control.  I told her that is a big part of why I like it, that she is this ultra conservative woman and yet during her orgasm, she loses it.  She lets me give her a second orgasm, and then I say, let me finger your pussy (hadn't done that in a while, but it is how she comes the hardest).  She comes even harder her second time, which surprised her.  Usually her second isn't as good as her first. I am marveling at her ability to have multiple orgasms, and to deny me mine.  So sexy.  We talk again about how she shouldn't be embarrassed about her losing control and how sexy it is when she comes, then she references that I am not the only one who enjoyed listening/watching her orgasms, that there are "others" who like her climaxes as well.  So, a reference to her cuckolding me, which of course turns me on a lot.  And there are some things that she has been a little coy about with respect to her play dates, one of them being how many times she came with her sex partners.  It sounds like she came and her lovers enjoyed it as much as me.  In any rate, she gets a little embarrassed about it and deflects all further questions.

I got ontop of her to show how hard I still was, and then I dressed her and we fell asleep together with my erection pressed against her ass.

Later on Father's Day, she came first again with my finger and then she said she wanted intercourse and she wanted me to come inside her.  She left it up to me to wear a condom or put a t shirt underneath her.  So I got a t shirt and I was just so turned on by her having had three orgasms and possibly tease and denial and cuckolding pillow talk being part of our sex life again, and I was just really excited and didn't last long.

In any event, that was a pretty sexy Father's day.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Hiatus Acknowledged; CFNM Handjob

I realize that it's been quite a long time since I've posted anything, and I'm unsure how/if I should go into the reasons why.  Suffice it to say that we've had a bumpy road for the past few months.

Really, I miss writing (my current job requires less of that particular skill), and I miss making and reminiscing about sexy times with my sexy wife Suzy.  With that being said, I will slowly wade into the sex blogger water to recall a recent (true) tale that resulted in extreme arousal for me, and a really big load.  Unfortunately, Suzy didn't want to come, so this was a husband-only orgasm scene.

We hadn't played for a while, and I was very horny.  We unexpectedly found ourselves home alone, as all kids were safely elsewhere.  A taste of empty nesting.

Once the coast was clear, I stripped fully nude, announcing to my wife that "naked man is here" (a bit of a pun on all the recent superhero movies, get it?).  She saw that I was nude, laughed (I hope not at my body, but more, "so typical of you to be naked" sorta laugh).  She was open to going upstairs, where she promptly locked the door (?).  Anyway, Suzy did not remove a single bit of clothing, and there I was fully nude and she started caressing my body.  I got hard fairly quickly becoming overwhelmed by the "sub space" I was falling into, the pleasure of receiving the handjob and the intense vulnerability of being fully nude while she was fully clothed (CFNM).

The feelings on the underside of my cock were intensely pleasurable.  It's a unique sensation, I guess because when I penetrate her, my entire cock experiences her wetness and her friction as opposed to the focused stroking of the sensitive underside of my shaft.  Suzy would occasionally stop stroking me, to pinch my nipples or to smack my balls (btw, had been a long time since I'd experienced some ball torture from her).  We had a short conversation about this:

Me: Oh, do you like smacking my balls?
Suzy: Well, I know you enjoy it
Me: Yes, I do, especially when I'm worked up.
Suzy: So, that's why I do it, because I know you like it.

Interesting conversation, because I thought smacking my balls was something we enjoyed equally.  At least in the past, I got the sense that she genuinely enjoyed hearing my yelps and the feeling of control, the fact that in spite of being 40 pounds lighter than me, could fully dominate me through the use of pain in my most manly of body parts as I oftentimes spread me legs to give her greater access to torture my balls.  Regardless, it was bringing me closer to orgasm.

Suzy then sat up a bit, seemingly to get a better glimpse of my impending ejaculation.  THIS TURNED ME ON,  reinforcing my vulnerability and knocking me over the edge to the point where I began the involuntary hip buckling and ejaculated my load across my chest.  I do so love it when we talk about sex afterwards, and Suzy simply said, "hey, did you not shoot very far?" (which reinforced she was watching me ejaculate); to which I said, yes, as the first load was on my chest near my armpit.  I guess this particular ejaculation involved a fast reconnaissance load, with the remaining spurts being much closer to home.  I had to clean myself up, my loads running all over the place.  Again, felt the intensity of being fully nude and watched by her.  Sadly, she didn't want a female orgasm reciprocation, and we simply went about our day, following me coming back to Earth from that mind blowing orgasm.

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An important aspect to bear in mind for this particular story is the fact that during this playtime, natural light (of course, the shades were drawn) was available, which really intensified the CFNM experience for me.  We normally play late at night, with a candle or small crack of light open, and frankly I think Suzy closes her eyes a lot as she's giving me a handjob.  This was me, on display.