Thursday, September 29, 2016

Note to my Hotwife

I realize I've been quiet lately when you've talked about "the lifestyle".  I know you want my thoughts.  It's been hard to sit down and think of them.  Here goes:

I enjoy the hotwife lifestyle.  A lot.  I am not anywhere near invoking a "veto".  I suppose that blogging and checking out forums is my way of trying to figure out that my abnormalcy is "normal".  Haha.  The truth is that many married men fantasize about their wives fucking.  I just happen to be among those that do.  As strange as it may seem, the more you've played, the more exciting it's become.  I don't feel jealous.  When you play, I get antsy that you are safe, and that you are having a good time.  I want you to have a good time.  It excites me a lot.  I definitely feel an "angst" but I don't think of it as jealousy.  I like to share :)

The fact is, if you never fucked another man besides me again, I would be fine, and it would still be exciting for you to tease me about it.  I really do love it during sex when you dirty talk about your naughty exploits, all the virile studs that want your naughty MILF cougar pussy.  No regrets.

Hotwifing is intended to boost your self esteem.  That's a big benefit of it.  I think it works wonders on your confidence when things are working right. I don't want to see you so bummed out about some bum.  I really don't understand why all the flakiness.  From the blogs and forums I've seen, it sounds pretty common, if that makes you feel any better.

I had sort of envisioned a scenario where you have multiple play partners to overcome the flake situation.  That way, you get a variety of men to sample from, all the while exciting me as the cuckold husband.  I feel better about that from the standpoint of you getting less chance of "attaching".  I take your word for it that you will talk to me if you ever feel like you are getting too close emotionally, and we would do something about it.

I have a lot of fantasies running through my head.  I really do like the idea of you sending me naughty photos from your "dates" and - I think <previous lover's> idea of me driving you around while you play in the back is very hot, and I didn't even think of it!  Someone as perverted as me!

I obviously really, really want to watch you fuck.  I like the idea of the swinger party.  Just watch and see if the vibe (haha) is right.  Maybe meet a former lover there?  For a convenient place to play?

So, I am not sure I'm really helping.  I like you owning and exploring your sexuality.  I can see the confidence in you grow, and I really like that since confidence is so sexy.

I am enjoying this journey.

I have a lot on my mind.  I am conflicted about a few things.  I have concluded that I clam up when you talk about your lovers because it excites me so much that I feel a need to restrain myself so that I do not "top from the bottom" (or is that cuckold from the bottom?).

My other main conflict has to do with dominance and submission.  Another post.

Love you my dear Queen Suzy.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Suzy's Playdate... Going all the way

Suzy followed up her "no sex" playdate last Friday.  It was a start and stop kinda thing, he originally cancelled on her for Wednesday, and there was some back and forth but Thursday night, as Suzy and I were playing, she said they were getting together for sex Friday.  We had some playful sexting banter during the day - I recall I texted her that I hope she's as wet as I am (from my pre-come thinking about it).

She said she'd be back by 8 or so, so I started to get a little concerned when it was past 8.  I took care of some domestic things, then shook a martini while I screwed around looking at cuckold blogs and forums.  She finally texted me and said she was done and heading home.  She explained to me that because her "cover" was going out with the ladies for dinner, she had to stop by and get some fast food before coming home.  I realized that I should go meet her at said fast food place.  She was eating in her vehicle alone, and told me the high level naughty details.

I asked about condoms, and she said they didn't use them.  He came inside her twice.  I was caught off guard by that.  She told me that he was snipped, and so I thought that down the line, if he works out, going bareback was a possibility.  But he came inside her.  Twice.

The bad news is that she did not orgasm.  She seemed a little "meh" about the encounter because she didn't come.  All I could think about was rectifying that situation.

When we finally had some adult time, she came out and I practically ripped her PJs off her.  She had to be expecting that.  We both wanted her to come.  Bad.  I hadn't gone done on her in a long time, so I suggested cunnilingus.  She gave me this look, but I just thought I'd go for it.  The fact that two loads of another man's semen were inside her, near where I was licking didn't seem to register at the time.  I was horny, and I'm pretty sure she wanted to come badly.

I jumped in, going straight for her clitoris.  I didn't really notice anything unusual about her taste or smell, and I am pretty sure she was enjoying it... but she tapped out (which I really appreciated by the way) and then I moved to our quick, powerful new female orgasm technique.  I grabbed the Hitachi and then fingered her.  At this point, it dawned on me that there was another male's semen inside her that I was possibly coming into contact with.  Anyway, a man's gotta do what he's gotta do, and I needed my wife to orgasm.  It really didn't take her long - I'd like to think because of my cunnilingus - till I stopped the finger thrusting and then she came HARD.  I really felt her vaginal contractions on my finger.  This adds a whole new dimension to my enjoyment of her orgasms... that I can actually feel her come.  Awesome.

I gave her some post orgasm caresses, then really needed to take care of my own climax.  I know that I dropped a big load - her third of the night - inside her and then I think I passed out.

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You might be asking: will Suzy play with him again?   She told me that she has a date with him on Friday, then glibly asked if I was jealous.  I think excited is a better word.  I'm curious to know Suzy's thoughts and am hoping she will respond.

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Suzy's new playmate

Suzy's last foray into extramarital play was in late June.  She handles all the arrangements with her playmates and she will give me a download on the latest developments periodically, when there is news to report and we can have some adult conversations.  She has had some ups and downs with regard to planned playdates with boytoys she's already played with.

Long story short, she unexpectedly met another guy that she became interested in over the past week or so.  She has done lots of sexting with him and they seem like they would connect well.  She said that she couldn't decide if he was cute, so, the coffee meet and greet.  That also went well.  So, they scheduled a makeout date for tonight.  Hott!

She had placed a limitation that nothing could happen below the belt on her.  She wanted to makeout with him to see if he's a good kisser, and 2nd base seemed easily obtainable for him.  They were both a little nervous, but got going in his bedroom with some kissing and then his clothing came off and her top came off.  Nothing below her waist.

Anyway, I am not sure if I am privvy to tell all of the details.  Suffice it to say that she enjoyed it and he had an orgasm.  Suzy has been pretty firm about making me wait for a "full" playdate, which seems to be a given at this point - just a matter of time.  My last orgasm was Aug 20, sex with her with our new "no thrust during her orgasm" technique, which I really want to try again.  So, it's been a while.  I've not had a lot of teasing and I was even locked in the chastity cage for a few days last week.  We've talked and I think we both think it's exciting for me to be locked when she has penetrative sex with him on her next playdate.  I am so blue-balled that I hope she changes her mind.  I need to ejaculate, and bad.

Over the past few days, with the prospects for her to regain her status as a "hotwife" and me as a "cuckold", I have been spewing out a lot of pre-come.  Literally, my shorts have been wet to the point that I can feel it as I walk.  So, we had this sexting exchange:

Her: OK, I'm coming home.
Me: Did you have a good time?
Her: < some emojis that seemed positive >
Me: Wow, I think I am about to come in my pants!
Her: So was he.  Lots of pre-cum!

Obviously, I couldn't wait for her to come home to give the details.  She did, and she had a good time.

Clearly, I am excited by the combination of her exploring her sexuality and the confidence that it is bringing her.  I wouldn't recommend cuckolding to everyone, but it's really kicked things up a notch for us!  My poor prostate... I need to come BAD!!!

Love you Queen Suzy!!

Thursday, September 1, 2016

Reaching our halfway mark - 50 female orgasms

A couple of days ago, Suzy nonchalantly asked me how we are doing on our sexual goal for the year.

You may recall that we have a 2016 resolution of Suzy having 100 orgasms.  We started out of the gates in spectacular fashion, but have tailed off since.  Last night - at least so far as my Orgasm Tracker is concerned, she had her 50th orgasm of the year.  I suspect that this is lower than the actual count, because I don't always remember to update the tracker, and she may or may not always inform me if she has masturbated (or, "taken a long shower" as it were).  Nevertheless, to quote Count Rugen, "let's just start with what we have":

50 female orgasms
19 male orgasms (husband)
7 male orgasms (play partner)

So, I need to get my act together.  There are 121 days left in 2016, so she needs to come every 2.4 days or about 3 times per week.  Three times per week is achievable!  Let's do this, Suzy!!

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Suzy and I had a great date night last night.  We normally go out at least once a week, but we had a dry spell of about a month.  We spoke honestly and I think I helped sort her through some stuff she was unsure of.  She appreciated the comments made from my last post, as do I.  I didn't get through all the things i wanted to talk to her about.  What's on my mind lately is communication, so I suspect that I will have a series of posts on communication in marriage.

Sunday, August 28, 2016

New female orgasm technique

I just realized that it's been about 2 months since I last posted.  Everything's fine.  We've had some positive life changes and it has caused our normal flow to be disrupted.  How's that for ambiguity?  Plus, routines get out of whack during the summer.  It seems that we are getting close to being in a groove again.

I've been traveling a lot for work.  Before that started, Suzy teased me that she would deal with my absence by playing with a lover.  I was fairly excited about that idea, but frankly I got so focused on my job that I didn't even think about it much.  I didn't blog at all.

When I came home, we had some passionate sex.  Some new sex.  It's amazing to me that we can find new ways to enjoy sex after being married for as long as we have.

So here's what we did.

When we have intercourse, Suzy typically holds the Hitachi on her clit while I penetrate her.  She always tells me to go slowly.  I get super turned on that she tells me how to fuck her.  Anyway, I will slowly penetrate her and frankly with my cock inside her and the Hitachi on her clit, she comes in no time.  It's pretty awesome.

So a few weeks ago, she told me (yes, it was phrased like I had no choice in the matter, which excited me a lot!) that she wanted slow penetrations (as before) but during her orgasm, she wanted me to be fully inside her pussy but to stop the "in and out".  So during her climax, my erection is no longer thrusting, but filling her pussy.

She L O V E D this.  It's our new thing.  The first time we tried it, she came really hard and said "wow, we've got to try that again!"  I told her I was game.  So we have done that a few times, and she's had great orgasms every time.

I am not sure what made her think of this, and why it might enhance her orgasm.  No clue.  But WE like it and it is a lot of fun.  I have no problem figuring out when to stop thrusting.  I hold my cock still during her climax, I enjoy her orgasm and let her calm down a bit, and then I go back to penetrating her until I come.

I read a fair amount of sex articles and I've never heard of this technique being recommended.  I don't even know what to call it.  I appreciate any suggestions, and would love to hear about any readers' experimentation with this.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Back in the Hotwife Saddle - Suzy 5, Playmate 1, Hubby 0

I'm regaining my lost mojo at a snail's pace, whereas Suzy put our sex life into hyperdrive this week.  The bottom line is that Suzy had been interested in hotwifing and finally had an opportunity to do so this past week.  Schedules lined up this week, so Suzy had sex with her fourth playmate since we began our hotwifing journey.  This is the guy that she met for a meet and greet a few weeks ago and letter regretting getting physical with.  He travels a lot but can host, so when the time came, she went for it.

The downside to this playdate is that I was asleep.  Part of my lost mojo, I guess, but that's what happened: she played while I was asleep, so no reclaim sex.  Apparently, he even suggested taking sexy photos and sending them to me, but Suzy decided against that.

Suzy came THREE times with him.  Her first orgasm (via fingering) was "very quick" according to her.  Suzy was a very aroused hotwife that night!  He told her he could not reach climax because "she was too wet" and wasn't getting enough friction on his cock to ejaculate.  I'll leave the rest of the details to Suzy, but suffice it to say that she enjoyed herself.  She went out of her way to mention that his attention was most definitely on her.

I was a bit aloof (I had a stressful event occur around this timeframe, so give me some slack with that!) and we didn't have a full conversation until our drive to a datenight last night.  She gave me all the details, and I was probably erect the entire time we talked about it.  In fact, when we got to the establishment, I was well "tented" and had to try to hide my arousal from vanilla passersby.  A lot of the conversation focused on hotwifing, although in less graphic terms since we were technically in public.  More talking about where things stand with other playmates, possible next rendezvous, things like that.

We were tired when we got back, and Suzy came out of the bedroom with me naked.  We did some foreplay and some more dirty talking.  In the "hot things your wife has said" category, Suzy said, "so you're the cuckold and I'm the hotwife!"*.  I did some breast stimulation and then finally took her panties and PJ's off, and gave her a solid G-spot fingering orgasm.  I enjoyed the after climax caressing (I think she did too!) and I was pretty determined to experience another female orgasm, which she seemed a little reluctant at first, but then enjoyed it.  She was clear that she did not want me to penetrate her and then later was clear that she did not want me to orgasm, but "maybe tomorrow if you're a good boy".

I put her clothes back on, took my sleeping pill (I was way too aroused at this point!) and then she enjoyed cuddling me with my erection poking her backside.  Husband denied.

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* I do read a forum about hotwifing and the distinction among various lifestyle labels seems to crop up a bit.  Suzy has asked me about it, and I think at various times I've started a post.  The fact of the matter is: I think Suzy is a "hotwife" because she has sex with men other than me with my knowledge and approval (kinda hard to deny the "tenting").  I'm really turned on by the double standard, and part of our dirty talking was her teasing me about how many lovers she's had compared to me.  I believe I'm a "cuckold" in the sense that my wife has sex with other men with my knowledge.  In these forums and via google, there seems to be a bit of a consensus that a cuckold is more into humiliation, etc.  While we've occasionally played with humiliation, that's not a normal part of our sex play.  So, perhaps I'm not a "full fledged" cuckold, but I enjoy - during dirty talk - her referring to me as a cuckold (I enjoy being called "slave", for that matter; as well as her saying that my release is contingent on me being a good "boy"), and we both seem to like the idea of her being a "hotwife".  We have agreed that her extramarital sexual partners are not "bulls" because I certainly would not want to be humiliated by another male (which seems to be the nuance of the term bulls, that they humiliate the cuckold husband).  So, for now, I will refer to her as the hotwife, me the cuckold husband, and her partners as "playmates", "boytoys", "lovers".

Monday, May 30, 2016

Lost Mojo?

For the past few weeks, I have uncharacteristically had an almost non-existent sex drive.  In spite of some inevitable middle age health issues (fewer and lower quality erections, "procedures"), I haven't lost much libido compared to my horny teenage years.  Call it "life getting in the way".  Well, and Suzy has herself had a lot of stressful events.  It's just been a crappy few months.  I am confident it will get better.

Meanwhile, I wanted to use the long weekend as a way to get my mind of those things, to enjoy and not stress.  On Saturday night - seemingly the first time in a while - we had a quality cuddle.  We had some pillow talk about how un-horny I was, and Suzy (jokingly?) said that it's been a relief that I haven't been after her, sexually.  She made it clear that she didn't want to play, but we CUDDLED all night and I groped her body.  This usually does increase my desire for her, and as I was half-waking up on Sunday morning, hands all over her, I envisioned the fact that other more virile men have enjoyed my wife's body.  I still get a rush in knowing that there are a few other men that have or are trying to enjoy my wife's sexuality.  My desire for her shot up quite a bit.  Plus, I had also been reflecting on our photo shoot that I discussed in my last post.

By that time I was super horny, my "mojo" back, and wanted her.  She gave me a rundown on where things stand with her, some banter as to how she "liked" me in my lost mojo state, and then had a heavy insinuation that she would "take a long shower", our euphemism for a shower-head induced solo female orgasm.  I wish she understood how hot I think female masturbation is, from my perspective.  It's a matter of perspective: the thought of me jerking off is disturbing to her, but the thought of her climaxing solo is very arousing to me... the whole "my wife NEEDS to come" thing.

So, we had a bit more info exchange and then we played VERY late last night.  Too late.  Naked, I got on top of her and darn near rubbed myself to a climax while I was giving her foreplay (sorry about all that pre-come on your PJ's hon!).  She had an intense Hitachi orgasm - it was very exciting for me to watch her experience that level of pleasure.  She treated me to a nice teasing session with nipple pinching, cock stroking, and ball torture, and I came very close to orgasm, but she backed off.  Orgasm denied.  At that point, I was super tired and crashed with her naked with the knowledge that my wife came twice within a 24 hour period.

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As I have said before, I get a bit depressed if I don't have a solid erection for a few days.  Suzy's tease and denial session have lifted my spirits up a bit.  I do have some pretty good cravings for some kinky sex play, and I am not sure where Suzy stands with this.  She implied last night that I was "topping from the bottom" (giving her too many "suggestions") but I am struggling to communicate my most current fantasies (many of which we've acted on several times, but not for a while) with some newer ones (again, most of which she knows about) - in light of Suzy wanting me to be more dominant or less submissive.  Maybe Suzy would be willing to try try this?