Monday, July 9, 2018

Weekend Denial

Suzy and I had a romantic weekend up North.  We were able to check in early Saturday; when we got to the room, we moved our luggage up, then I rested a few minutes on the bed.  She went into the restroom, I got the Hitachi out and wanted it to be ready to go for when we played.  She lay on the bed and then seemed to be playful so I used the Hitachi on her; it didn't reach and I asked her to move and she pretended to protest.  I realized there was another outlet closer, so I quickly made my move to shift over to that one, and sorta reached between her legs (she was laying on her stomach).  She didn't protest any more, it had been a little while (too long!) since her last orgasm and she seemed to be enjoying it.  She kept getting kinda close, then I reached underneath her to add a little more pressure to her clit.  She came HARD.  One of her patented spectacular orgasms.  I made an innocent little comment that it had been too long, and as usual she sorta acknowledged how pleasurable it was and after a bit of "basking" got up and said let's go explore.

Long story short, we had a really good time together, but we drank much more than normal.  We had a fantastic dinner, eating too much, frankly, and then we went to some wine/beer bar with a musician.  That's where I should have stopped, but instead had a a few more beers and Suzy had another wine or two.  Well, it was basically too much.  We walked back to the hotel and played but Suzy later said she was not feeling good.  I put a condom on but had erection issues.  She came a second time and we basically just passed out together.

The next morning we had a CFNM cuddle fest.  She was wearing a sexy top from my alma mater; the reason why it's sexy is because it has a huge amount of access to her breasts.  I groped and grabbed her for hours.  She wasn't feeling well, and didn't want to play again.  However, I had some quality naked time with her, almost always being erect or at least semi erect.  I think she thinks my kink is very weird sometimes, but it's clearly something I enjoy and she seems ok with playing along with it; she would peak in to watch me shower, ask me to soap up my cock and balls, etc.  We've been talking a bit more about retirement and the topic naturally went to how often I'd be naked when that finally happens.  She seems pretty ok with it, for now.

Interestingly, on our way back, I brought up sex a few times and she quickly changed subjects.  She didn't seem to notice that I hadn't had an orgasm.  She sorta promised that we would play Sunday night, but I got cock blocked by a visitor, so I just went to bed horny again.  Maybe tonight.  I have a huge load, and very blue balls right now.

I love Suzy.

Friday, July 6, 2018

Being told what to do

I'm very different in the bedroom with Suzy than in the real world.  I've always HATED being told what to do, mainly because it belittles me and makes me feel unvalued for my creativity.

However, in the bedroom, I love it.  I guess this is yet another example of the role reversal that turns me on so much.  Two examples over the past week:

1. "You better pack condoms for our vacation"
Most of our sex lately has been handjobs or condom wearing sex.  Interestingly, my post "Condom Domination" is one of my all time most popular posts.  Long story short, I had my vasectomy well over ten years ago, and Suzy takes oral BC, so wearing condoms is strictly for convenience (for her) and not for birth control reasons.  Throughout our marriage, she has been reluctant for me to ejaculate inside her when we are not in our own bed.  Examples I can think of include when we had sex in our van, sex at her parents' house, and sex in hotels.

During our vacation sex last week, I entered her bareback and Suzy reminded me to put a condom on.  So she was quite serious about enforcing this, essentially telling me to go get a condom.  I find that hot.  Even though my unwrapped insertions were brief, they did act to help with the foreplay, getting her ready for her orgasm.  She would then take the vibrator as I went to fetch the condom and begin her journey towards orgasm, while I rolled it on, then performed as expected, see below.

2. Telling me how to fuck her
It's no secret to longtime readers that Suzy's best orgasms happen with my cock or my finger inside her pussy with a vibrator on her clit.  I recently postulated to her that it seems similar to my handjob orgasms during which she strokes my cock as well as stimulates my balls.  That additional stimulation usually makes my own orgasms that much more powerful.  At any rate, I figure there's an analogy there.

Alas, I know exactly how she likes to orgasm.  She likes my cock or finger to SLOWLY stimulate the upper wall of her pussy with a strong vibrator (Hitachi) on her clitoris with a lot of pressure.  She's pretty direct to me, "SLOW"!  Right before the moment of truth, when her orgasm is inevitable, she likes the movement to be stopped completely while her pussy clenches down on the penetrating object in a rhythmic manner.  It's so sexy to feel (easier with my finger than my cock) and sometimes I have watched these sexy female contractions.

My outside the bedroom self would be annoyed at her telling me what I already know, how she climaxes best.  However, I find it so sexy when she tells me what to do.  It's so hot having a wife that likes to orgasm, knows her body well enough to come the hardest, and has the confidence to express (demand?) it to her partner.

Monday, July 2, 2018

Father's Day CFNM Tease and Denial

It was after midnight and Suzy came out to me being fully nude.  We messed around a bit and I told her that I wanted to hear her come.  So I put the vibe on her pussy, while she was fully in her PJs.  She came within seconds.  I talked to her about how much I enjoy watching her come and I'd like her to have a second orgasm.  She sorta joked about not being in shape, that her abs can't handle another orgasm, then we talked about doing some orgasm "training" to get her abs back into shape.  All fairly light-hearted pillow talk.

Then she casually asks if I want inside her pussy or a handjob.  She's been a bit more vocal lately about wanting me to wear condoms to contain the mess of my orgasm, especially that on our vacation, I will need to pack condoms (she in particular prefers that I use condoms when we are away from home).  She starts stroking me, and I get the most pleasurable erection with my legs spread wide (almost like an OB GYN type of pose) and she alternates stroking me with smacking my balls.  Lights were on, and most of the time she was either looking at my erection or looking right into my eyes.  I wasn't really getting that close to orgasm, since she was pausing to smack my balls fairly frequently.  It was like an extended foreplay session where I got my CFNM fetish fully satisfied. She then decided that she didn't want me to come.  She said in a sexy, playful way, that she likes the attention she gets from me when I don't come and that maybe I won't be allowed to come until our vacation.  It was hot and sexy, reminding me of our femdom days where sex was all about the wife's pleasure.  I was getting pretty excited.

We talked a bit more about how erotic it is when she comes.  She said that she thinks she looks ridiculous when she comes, that she loses all control.  I told her that is a big part of why I like it, that she is this ultra conservative woman and yet during her orgasm, she loses it.  She lets me give her a second orgasm, and then I say, let me finger your pussy (hadn't done that in a while, but it is how she comes the hardest).  She comes even harder her second time, which surprised her.  Usually her second isn't as good as her first. I am marveling at her ability to have multiple orgasms, and to deny me mine.  So sexy.  We talk again about how she shouldn't be embarrassed about her losing control and how sexy it is when she comes, then she references that I am not the only one who enjoyed listening/watching her orgasms, that there are "others" who like her climaxes as well.  So, a reference to her cuckolding me, which of course turns me on a lot.  And there are some things that she has been a little coy about with respect to her play dates, one of them being how many times she came with her sex partners.  It sounds like she came and her lovers enjoyed it as much as me.  In any rate, she gets a little embarrassed about it and deflects all further questions.

I got ontop of her to show how hard I still was, and then I dressed her and we fell asleep together with my erection pressed against her ass.

Later on Father's Day, she came first again with my finger and then she said she wanted intercourse and she wanted me to come inside her.  She left it up to me to wear a condom or put a t shirt underneath her.  So I got a t shirt and I was just so turned on by her having had three orgasms and possibly tease and denial and cuckolding pillow talk being part of our sex life again, and I was just really excited and didn't last long.

In any event, that was a pretty sexy Father's day.

Wednesday, May 30, 2018

Hiatus Acknowledged; CFNM Handjob

I realize that it's been quite a long time since I've posted anything, and I'm unsure how/if I should go into the reasons why.  Suffice it to say that we've had a bumpy road for the past few months.

Really, I miss writing (my current job requires less of that particular skill), and I miss making and reminiscing about sexy times with my sexy wife Suzy.  With that being said, I will slowly wade into the sex blogger water to recall a recent (true) tale that resulted in extreme arousal for me, and a really big load.  Unfortunately, Suzy didn't want to come, so this was a husband-only orgasm scene.

We hadn't played for a while, and I was very horny.  We unexpectedly found ourselves home alone, as all kids were safely elsewhere.  A taste of empty nesting.

Once the coast was clear, I stripped fully nude, announcing to my wife that "naked man is here" (a bit of a pun on all the recent superhero movies, get it?).  She saw that I was nude, laughed (I hope not at my body, but more, "so typical of you to be naked" sorta laugh).  She was open to going upstairs, where she promptly locked the door (?).  Anyway, Suzy did not remove a single bit of clothing, and there I was fully nude and she started caressing my body.  I got hard fairly quickly becoming overwhelmed by the "sub space" I was falling into, the pleasure of receiving the handjob and the intense vulnerability of being fully nude while she was fully clothed (CFNM).

The feelings on the underside of my cock were intensely pleasurable.  It's a unique sensation, I guess because when I penetrate her, my entire cock experiences her wetness and her friction as opposed to the focused stroking of the sensitive underside of my shaft.  Suzy would occasionally stop stroking me, to pinch my nipples or to smack my balls (btw, had been a long time since I'd experienced some ball torture from her).  We had a short conversation about this:

Me: Oh, do you like smacking my balls?
Suzy: Well, I know you enjoy it
Me: Yes, I do, especially when I'm worked up.
Suzy: So, that's why I do it, because I know you like it.

Interesting conversation, because I thought smacking my balls was something we enjoyed equally.  At least in the past, I got the sense that she genuinely enjoyed hearing my yelps and the feeling of control, the fact that in spite of being 40 pounds lighter than me, could fully dominate me through the use of pain in my most manly of body parts as I oftentimes spread me legs to give her greater access to torture my balls.  Regardless, it was bringing me closer to orgasm.

Suzy then sat up a bit, seemingly to get a better glimpse of my impending ejaculation.  THIS TURNED ME ON,  reinforcing my vulnerability and knocking me over the edge to the point where I began the involuntary hip buckling and ejaculated my load across my chest.  I do so love it when we talk about sex afterwards, and Suzy simply said, "hey, did you not shoot very far?" (which reinforced she was watching me ejaculate); to which I said, yes, as the first load was on my chest near my armpit.  I guess this particular ejaculation involved a fast reconnaissance load, with the remaining spurts being much closer to home.  I had to clean myself up, my loads running all over the place.  Again, felt the intensity of being fully nude and watched by her.  Sadly, she didn't want a female orgasm reciprocation, and we simply went about our day, following me coming back to Earth from that mind blowing orgasm.

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An important aspect to bear in mind for this particular story is the fact that during this playtime, natural light (of course, the shades were drawn) was available, which really intensified the CFNM experience for me.  We normally play late at night, with a candle or small crack of light open, and frankly I think Suzy closes her eyes a lot as she's giving me a handjob.  This was me, on display.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Verbal Teasing

Suzy is understandably confused as to the verbal teasing I like and don't like.  I have been thinking about this a lot and I think I know to explain it to her.

I have settled on distinguishing between putting me down and dirty talking.  Philosophically, I don't agree with putting someone down over something they don't have a lot of control over.

I'll try to go through a few examples of what I mean.

Like many men, I'm pretty sensitive about my cock size.  I've seen (flaccid) men naked in locker rooms ~ not that I'm trying to, it just happens sometimes.  I'm a very discrete locker room changer, I line everything up and I do it really fast.  My genitals are out there to see, but I make it snappy.  Other men simply walk around naked.  And yes, I've (inadvertently) seen some pretty big cocks this way.  The most blatant example of this was when I took a surfing lesson.  The instructor had a wet suit on, and his cock was running like halfway down his thigh for all to see.  Let's just say I know there are men better endowed men than me.  And frankly I want Suzy to play with those men.

Why?  Perhaps its the masochistic part of me.  When she has extramarital sex, I want it to be fun for her, and maybe a bigger cock would do something to her that I can't, reach places inside her vagina that I can't 'reach'.  Or maybe a girthier cock could stimulate her clitoris better.  I don't know but I want to find out.

Longtime readers should know that inventing new ways for Suzy to climax is a bit of an obsession of mine.  Anyway, the idea that she gets 'stretched out' a little bit more than I can deliver is frankly a big part of why cuckolding appeals to me - that she can try something different and compare and contrast.  I'm still very turned on by the fact that Suzy has experienced uncircumcised cocks.  See?  That's something I really can't control and I don't feel any less manly that she's played with something I simply can't provide her.  I don't feel bad about that.  It just is.

Put downs
So calling my cock "small" or something like that is not something I would like.  I don't think my cock is small, I think it's around average, but I guess Suzy would probably be a better judge of that.  Anyway, I do NOT want to be teased around being "small".  I'm insecure about this, and I don't need to be more so.

Sexy dirty talking
"Hey baby, I'm interested in this guy with a really big cock.  I'm not even sure it will fit, kinda nervous as to whether I can accommodate him.  I want to know how he feels in my tight married pussy.  Are you on board with that?"  Ummm yes!!!  So yes, her wanting to explore/"be stretched" by someone bigger is erotic.  Go figure.  It's not putting me down for being less endowed.

Do you see the difference?  Saying I'm "small" vs. he's big - or she wants to explore someone bigger - amounts to a stunning difference to me.  one of the most erotic times we had was when Suzy went through a "Cliffs Notes" of the men she's had sex with, their sexual pros and cons.  It was hot.  I do want to know what my wife thinks of playing with bigger cocks.  Honestly; without putting me down.

Aging has done a couple of things to my sexual abilities.  One, I tend to lose my erection if Suzy stops stimulating my cock.  Example is if she plays with my nipples or balls, I may lose my erection even though I'm very excited and enjoying what she's doing.  Two, I *thought* I had a longer recovery time (hours or days).  Note my recent post about vacation sex, which may challenge this notion.  Nevertheless, we've had some cases where I climaxed and couldn't go for a second round.  It freaked me out that I even talked to my doctor about it.  Anyway, you could go two ways here:

Put downs
"Hey old man, I think I need to get a younger stud so that he can keep up with me and fuck me multiple rounds.  Not like you".

Sexy dirty talking
"Hey baby, I'll let you come as many times as you want to this weekend... think you can handle that?  Think you can go for a second round today?  Think you can keep up with my other lovers?"  What man doesn't like rising up (hehe) for a challenge?

Although I was originally annoyed about this at first, some mild teasing about "not needing my balls anymore" (obviously while firmly grabbing them) or teasing me about my infertility is something I think I will enjoy.

"The Double Standard"
I'm very aroused by her rubbing in that we are experimenting in a "half open" relationship where she can have sex with others and I remain monogamous to her.  Alternatively, that sex is for the wife's pleasure and that she comes so hard, too bad husband is denied that pleasure.  Things like that.  It arouses my submissive tendencies.  I like her "trash talking" about how many sexual partners she has had compared to me, and that she's "bull hunting" for more.  I enjoy this type of teasing; I'm not sure if she does.

Name calling and Pillow Talking
Inside the bedroom, I perfectly fine with her calling me "slave", "cuckold" or possibly other naughty names.  I'm not actually a slave, but being her sexual slave (during sex) is exciting.  I don't think I'd like her to call me names like that outside the bedroom.  The last time we had sex, this came up: even though I feel like i "know" how she likes me to penetrate her, it is REALLY arousing to tell me during the act.  I love it, I love her being demanding of me and I think it's just so hot when she tells me to speed up/go slower/go deeper/stop thrusting.  It's so sexy when a woman knows what she wants!

I enjoyed it a lot when she was administering a ball slapping to me that she said things like, "oh come on take it like a man"; "I'm not even hitting them that hard".  Things like that.

Erection status
A good and bad thing about being male is that your sexual excitement (or lack thereof) is right out there when you are being intimate.  There have been times when we were fantasizing and she has teased me about being rock hard, and I enjoy that ("Oh, I guess you like that"; the ol', "do you have a roll of quarters in your pocket, or are you happy to see me?" line works well here).

Or I also enjoy her complaining about me being soft when I should be hard, as long as the above rules are kept in mind.  I'm actually getting older, you know.

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I hope this clear things up ~ at least a little.  Questions?  Please ask ;-)

This is not intended to be a comprehensive list, just what I thought most needed clarification.  I'm sure other things will come along.  Tease away, Suzy!!  Love you!!

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Vacation Sex Learnings

Suzy and I had a super romantic getaway last weekend.  Sex was high on the agenda.  She had just finished her period, was nicely shaved, and ready for some marital relations.  I was (as usual) horny.  As we were packing, Suzy made a comment about locking me up.  While I think this was a little late, and I didn't especially want to wear the cage driving 3+ hours, it did excite me knowing she thinks about the cage.  Maybe some chastity play is coming up?

I had not ejaculated inside my wife for some time.  Not really sure, probably over a month.  Lots of condom usage.  For the first round, I ate her pussy to orgasm.  She made some flattering comments after her climax about how much she enjoyed her orgasm and we had some playful banter about me *finally* becoming a good pussy eater.  For me in my journey as a cunnilinguist, I credit her feedback as helping me to finally navigate her womanhood.  I've probably said this before, but I really do feel that going down on her is "making love".  It is an intimate encounter with my life partner that I truly enjoy.  I like how I can focus on pleasuring her and I'd like cunnilingus to be a more regular part of our sex play, as we clearly both enjoy it.

Suzy then asked me to fuck her doggie style and to pull out and jerk myself off over her back.  I've never done this, and my expectations going in were low.  Reason being, that this is a common porn move, where the male jerks off and I never really "got" that.  My orgasms jerking off are significantly less intense than her giving me a handjob or coming inside her.  So how could this be good?  Well, it exceeded my expectations tremendously.  Firstly, Suzy was assertive that I was not to come inside her and I definitely got the sense from her that she would be disappointed if I did.  You must know by now what a turnon it is for me to be told what to do by her.  It really feeds my submissive desires, like I am a lowly worker bee that gets to fuck the queen, but only the queen's terms.  Secondly, I've never done the porn star pullout, so this was a novelty.  I wasn't sure if I could do it right.  Well, no problems, and my orgasm was intense.  I sprayed quite a bit of semen on her back.  I actually hit her in the cheek on one of the spurts, which she was not happy about, and we had a bit of a discussion about that after.  Generally speaking, semen volume and distance is directly correlated with my orgasm intensity.  Meaning, if I shoot a lot and far, I have a great orgasm.

Anyway, she teases me pretty regularly about my inability to go for round 2.  I admit, I enjoy this type of teasing (more on that later).  Like a challenge that I must rise above (pun intended).  My libido shot down due to the prolactin taking over in my brain.  This first session was in the early evening, so I did have some time to recuperate and I felt good about my chances to perform again later in the evening.

Here's my second big learning.  I can actually perform even if I'm not horny and not "in the mood" as I usually am.  I'll be honest with you, I probably would not have initiated sex for round 2.  I was sexually satiated.  But it was sort of a Suzy challenge, and this is vacation sex after all.  I was able to get it up.  Suzy came first, and she told me to put a condom on.  I believe she teased me about cuckolding me and once again I had a fantastic orgasm: Super intense.  So to be clear, my "learning" here was that I can perform sexually even if I don't have that horny drive.  Just do her.  Whoah.  Major breakthrough in my sexuality.  We'll see if Suzy actually allows this in non-vacation settings.  But I like that I have this ability and that it can also be very intensely pleasurable.

And third learning is verbal teasing.  Suzy said she was "confused" about verbally teasing me.  Don't have time, but this probably deserves its own post.

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

The Bull Trainer

After an apparent hiatus from the world of hotwifing, Suzy gave me a download of some of her recent flirtations with other men.  I was (as usual) extremely horny, and her "cuckold conversation" made me that much hornier.

She's chatting with a new younger guy and a guy she chatted with before.  This amounts to an interesting race as to who will become "Friend #7".

In one corner, we have a young, fit stud that is less than half Suzy's age.  A few days ago, she showed me his photo and she seemed to have the same schoolgirl crush voice as she had with the waiter "Cory" several years ago, long before she was officially a hotwife.  I didn't know she was still actively looking for "bulls" and I was pleasantly surprised that she had chatted this young buck up.

It turns out that he is a student, lives at home only a few miles from us.  Definitely cannot host.  He has the "goldilocks" amount of sexual experience for Suzy (I think), meaning not too much, not too little.  He wants to explore having sex with a MILF and is fully aware of her cuckold fantasy of him taking her while I watch.  A plus (for me) is he likes the idea of having some naughty photos taken (will these be selfies/taken by Suzy/taken by me?).  Suzy let me in on her conversations with him, and I enjoy reading her convos with prospective lovers.  She made it clear about our situation, and was direct with him.  I found that hot, as does he.  Oh, and the parts she "left out": that he is a part time fitness trainer and masseuse.  I know that he has seen some photos of Suzy, understands what she wants, and is interested.  So the question is: who will train who?  The thought of Suzy "training" him to pleasure her is pretty hot to this husband!

Or in the other corner, there is a fellow that contacted her regularly when she was starting to find partners, had a girlfriend that was OK with him playing (allegedly) and now they are broken up and he has a condo to himself.  I don't recall a lot of the physical details of this guy, but Suzy does seem interested in getting to know him better.  And likes the idea of him being able to host, as the younger guys in our area are less able to do so.  I believe they share the same profession.  Maybe that's part of the appeal to her?  She can have a little monkey business, then talk business?!

As Suzy was (unexpectantly) giving me the low down on these potential lovers, I was rock hard and she was playing with my balls and cock while I was fully clothed (hey, remember my last post about kinky reversals?!?!).  She stroked me and I came, making a big mess of my shirt, shorts, and underwear.  I guess I had a big load from all this cuckold talk.  Of course, Suzy had her orgasm before this, and taunted me as to whether I'd be able to go another round.  Happy to report, I got it up and had a second handjob orgasm.  Yay Us!!